*ouch* i ripped my ankle during microprocessor technology lab session today. Guess I was reallie deep in thoughts at tt point of time. Didnt reallie pay attention to the lab todae...i was half listening half flashbacking. Flashbacking is sth which i tried to avoid at all cause. Yeah, you might have the chance to flashback some good memories, but whu noes wad u will flashback? Suddenly found out that I actually talked on the phone with her for quite a long time before...around a hour or so. That was our first phone chat..right after we met. I can sae she is the first girl whom can talk tt much with me even though we just met. I dun feel awkward toking to her after a while. I hope time could travel back. There is something which i can change to avoid the situation i m being now. But...time..no one can travel back in time. She wasnt the only one who is part of the flashback..Samantha was the other one. I remember the very obedient and sweet looking Samantha. I told her almost everything, she was the only girl I trust. I didnt reallie trust LC tt time...cuz i dun reallie noe her character. Seriously, Samantha kept me sane when I was at the verge of turning insane. We talked about anything, she never raised her voice or lose her temper in front of me. Really nice and sweet. I dun reallie call that a backstab..must be out of my mind writing that in my previous post. I m reallie sorry samantha..if u manage to see my blog entries again. I remember asking her to help me end the cold war. Her last words to me on msn was "I will see what I can do. Dun worry, I will help you.". At that point of time, I was kind of relieved that I still have real strong frenship ties with one of her frens. But alas, after that conversation, she refused to reply my smses and msn messages again. I was...i dunnoe hw to describe my feelings at tt pt of time. I remember vaguely wad i was tinking. I only remember that i swam to and fro the swimming pool for 6 hours before coming up and took a two day MC. Why? What did you hear? Why did you hate me all of a sudden? I tried my very best to recouncile with her...but to no avail. Den Heng Hui, an ex classmate of mine told me this, "You have to be fiercer and more evil than her if you want her to submit to u." Yeah rite it doesnt work at all Heng Hui, nice try. I cr8 havoc in every blog of people she is close to...but she seems to hate me further. Damn it! Samantha, if you ever come back to this blog again, listen. I still treat you as my godsister, like before. If you think I blame you for everything, I want to let you know that I never blamed you for anithing. I am sorry..can we continue the brothers and sisters ties like before? Audrey might not want to talk to me ever again, i dun want to have ani more regrets in life. mvp_gaoxing@hotmail.com. If you think we can be like godsiblings like we did before, i hope you will add me...or leave ur email in my tagboard. And i m sorry about my prev. entry, becuz I came home late..tired becuz of school workload and was shocked to noe that i got someone into trouble becuz i forced her to tell me wad you said about me. Yes, i agree i m a sick bastard...someone who doesnt anithing good in life...
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SETSUNA name: Darren Ng age: 21
Occupation: SAF Gundam Meister
bday: 06101988
WISH
*Christ 2nd coming
*A just world
*God's better half for me
