Gundam 00 - Gundam Meister

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Mikami Teru's past

Mikami Teru. I was a little offended when Alvin told me that Mikami reminds him of me in the comic. He is a great supporter of Kira, and even assist him greatly in his job of elimination. But after watching Death Note Ep. 32, I finally understand why Alvin have this thinking. Mikami was bullied by classmates and school bullies since young. Beaten up wherever he went. He was just trying to protect the victims of these bullies. Well u can certainly link them to my primary and secondary school days. I always got bullied in school. Almost everyday, I came home with bruises all over my body. In addition to that, I changed countless specs till the pt the optician is very happy whenever I visited his shop as I am his so called 'loyal' customer. I remembered this fella called Sean Lim who goes around bullying others in class. I remembered during my birthday when I was Primary 4, he snatched Phoebe's share of sweets which I gave to everyone in my class. I took it back from him and gave them back to Phoebe. But I got nth good in return for doing that. Sean gave me a shoe print on the back of my uniform. I have to hid the back of my uniform all the way until the toilet to wash them secretly without letting my mum know what happened. Well, I was kind of happy just by hearing a word of thanks from her. Things didnt improve when I reached secondary school. In fact, it was w

orse. I was called a bastard by guys and girls were practically spitting everywhere whenever i appear around them. I got into fights very often and I was badly bruised than ever. Things only started to change when I reached secondary 3, when I know how to defend myself. But still there are still arrogant arses whu made fun of my voice. I take it as they have no parental love right here in Singapore and let them off. I didnt come up with so many nicknames to act cool or wad. I used them becuz i respect them and i admire them. They are strong but I am nowhere near them. Take this man for example, or vampire i shld sae. Ok I shall post a pic of him here. On the left is Zelman Clock, a vampire who protects both humans and vampires in the anime Black Blood Brothers. Although most of the time, you see him acting arrogant and being ignorant on purpose, he is a person who is able to stand up for the weak. When the younger brother of the main character, Mochizuki Kotarou was in danger saving someone kidnapped by one of the villians, he came out and save him. I have the urge of asking my juniors in

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Presentation over!

Yes ar! Presentation is over! That is one less problem to deal with. There is still interview skills..but it wun be as scary as presentation. Overall, I think I did better than my prev. presentations, much more stable and clearer in speech. Was worrying tt i might screw up the presentation today due to last nite's dream. I was damn frustrated and confused this morning over tt dream.

I dreamt tt I was together with a girl whom I just met this semester. Shall not elaborate further, it will draw out too many conclusions. Believe it or not, I have no feelings for tt girl currently and I dunno how she appear in my dream and how she turn out to my girl. Although it is hard to find a down to earth girl who is also a devoted Christian, I have no evil intentions and I really dunno hw the hell she appeared in my dream. It just came and left mi lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling for like 15 mins before climbing out of bed. Weird dream.

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Where is justice?

I watched 原点 today and was rather pissed off. It looks like the world's justice have more loopholes than I thought. Money, money, money. Even justice looks up to the rich. If you are rich, you can escape from the webs of law. Feel so pissed off. Mikami! Do your job!

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Pride of Bartley found

Ok I intended to post an entry yesterday. However, Death Note Episode 31 was available for download, so after the download, I was so engrossed with the episode that I forgotten to post the entry.

I found the pride of Bartley in my own specialization class. Lim Swee Tiong, Bartley Secondary School 2002 Normal Technical Top student, member of the NCC(Air) Precision Rifle Squad. I find him rather familiar when i saw him in my class. When the teacher called out his name, I was even more convinced that he is from my sec. school. I remembered he was the senior who filled in my Sec 1 IPW survey. Haha fancy finding him in my own class this time, felt so honoured.

It is also at this point of time, I realised that I forgotten about someone whom I respect when I was in secondary 1. Kristine Fu, my dearest peer leader when I was Secondary One, although she communicated with girls I dun like in my class, but she is someone I respect and look up too. When my classmates spoiled her favourite key chain, she got angry but she didnt lose her temper on us, she just leave. Cool! She was also my mentor who helped me picked up the pieces when I fell down for the first time in BGR. A wise senior, but she is in Perth now. Sobz~ Never had the chance to thank her. So I intend to organize a Bartley Alumni Dinner when I start working in future, I will be sure that she is invited. I m someone who remember my roots, I must thank her.

Was suppose to go home at 1 plus today. However, I accompanied my new classmates Joy and Steven to test their boards. Poor fellas, one got chased out of the class for being late and the other one i dunno wad happened. And there was a slight problem with Joy's board. However, jiefu helped her to solve the problem, so I waited for her as Steven left first and she is all alone. This girl is forever smiling and laughing, I wonder if unhappiness or stress ever appeared in her dictionary haha.

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Screwed up

Things just REFUSE to turn out the way u want it to be. I remembered placing my thumbdrive into my bag last nite, but I cant find it in the ELP now! I cant do my presentation slides even if I WANT to. Idiotic life of mine, now I have to find sth to do before rotting in the school premises. School really sux sometimes, u will lose ur mind when u r busy meeting lecturers and tutors UNREASONABLE deadlines. It better be that I forgotten to place my thumbdrive into my bag last nite, I cant imagine loosing the thumbdrive again. I lost it once during Microprocessor Technology lab two sems ago, cant imagine how much i scrimp and save just to get a new one. If I lose tis one, I will probably lose my mind too. My Embedded System Design codes are in that thumbdrive and there are no more duplicate copies. I made the ESD board work within 1 lab session for the first time. If I lose the thumbdrive, God noes what I will do. Dun tell me doing good deeds is a bad karma, this is so illogical. DAMN, DAMN, DAMN! Feel like swearing throughout the whole of this entry, the dae is so screwed up for the morning. Things supposed to be much better cuz of doing a good deed this morning, but it somehow BACKFIRED. I forgotton to bring my thumbdrive(I hope so), my mobile computing(pray tt the bald tutor will just keep his mouth shut during the tutorials, he never stop commenting on students whu forgotten to bring his lecture notes, even if it is only 1 tutorial.). Whats next? Toilet door locked when I m in the toilet? Sheesh, wads going on today?

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A good deed done

Done a good deed early in the morning, my day shld be brightened up just for tt. Supposed to meet my group members in the ELP. Judging from the current weather condition, I doubt any of them will turn up. Oh well, who cares. I have more than enough things to do up till 12pm. Shall start with Bible study den my school stuff.

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State of confusion

Really in a state of confusion now. Why do I still cry over someone who threw me down from somewhere high? When I see her photo in friendster today, the memories which I thought I have long forgotten came back like a whirlwind. The feelings is still there, deep within my heart. I think even after a thousand years, I will never forget her. An image of her will suddenly come into my mind, anytime in my life. I have been lying to myself that I have long put her somewhere at the back of my brain. I let the lie eat me up alive. I am still asking why, why doesnt she want me. 4 years of courtship, why doesn't she feel anything for me? No wonder I got rejected recently. Even the most idiot girl on earth will noe there is someone else still in my heart.

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ELP again

In the ELP again. Last lecture is cancelled, dunnoe why. Bad thing about third year students in NYP, we do not own a laptop. Okay maybe some rich kids own them, but we are not required to buy one. So ELP is always our last resort when we want to slack. AMK is too far and it is a place which burns money, so no pt going all the wae there. Didnt noe I will see her in ELP. Her lab is supposed to start todae, but dunno why she intentionally go in late with her classmates. For once, I am not looking forward to seeing her. Maybe I have already dug out the horrible truth from her, so now seeing her is more of a pain than a blessing.

Presentation is going quite well, should be able to complete the slides by end of this wednesdae. Have to complete the OS application assignment 2 as well. Really hate this module, together with FPGA. Useless and worthless modules in my opinion. Well i need to pass both in order to clear this semester. I wonder what is in for me for my FYP(final year project) and my IAP(industrial attachment program). My NAPFA test is due on 6th of June and I havent been training. Forget it , fail one station equals to fail all, might as well go in 3 months earlier. Jiewen is training for 2.4KM run. Was intending to join in, but after I heard whu will he be training with, I passed. Training with those people will only make my blood boil. They will insult me or poke fun of me should I lag any distance behind them. Worse, they might call me a pig. Sorry, I m not tolerant enough to tolerate their crap. Heard from my bro that University IAP have to go thru an interview, what a bother! I reallie wonder what is in for my interview in future. Hope it is as easy as what is taught in my comm skills lecture notes.

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Disappointed

Been very busy since school started this semester. In my opinion, this is the least enjoyable semester of my years in NYP. All I want to do now everyday is to go home quickly and SLEEP! Although there are many things to do, I cant find the motivation to complete any of them. Just feel like sleeping whenever I reach home. People are less friendly. They will pressurize you if you fail 2 help them, but they dun give a damn when u need their help. And I am always very dumb. I dun 1 2 help, but whenever people ask me for help, I willingly offered them. So used to being dumb. I come to realise that most of the birthdays I prioritized most are those who NEVER remembered mine and are NEVER thankful. Think Alvin is the only one whu remembered among the many. And those whom I didnt prioritized are those who always remembers mine. Feel really bad to these people.

Alright, I suddenly have the motivation to clear all my assignments now, and complete the presentation that is due two weeks later. I HATE PRESENTATIONS AND COMM SKILLS!!!!

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Refreshed

I confessed to her yesterday. Was intending to confess after I graduate from NYP, but I was feeling really uneasy this few days. So might as well make it quick. Well due to different circumstances, she cant accept me. Well by right, I shouldnt be courting her too. I felt more refreshed after the rejection, unlike the rejection I had a few years back, I called it "The Twilight Hour", it was a rather torturing period. At least we are still able to stay as close friends, thats more than I can ask for.

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