Gundam 00 - Gundam Meister

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a few more childish posts

31 Aug 06, 00:06

kenshin: better wake up your idea you are no longer young anymore

31 Aug 06, 00:03

anonymous: nabei cheebyee u better watch out

30 Aug 06, 23:46

URE NO 1 FAN: WTF U BETTER WATCH OUT!! I"LL SLAY U WIF URE JAPANESe SWORD!!

30 Aug 06, 23:41

anonymous: who are u referring to. FDD.

30 Aug 06, 23:39

hottie: man.. u better watch what u type man.. God aint too happy about it

30 Aug 06, 23:36

WTF: WTF HU R Y TO CALL US DOGS!! FARKING FAT ****!!

30 Aug 06, 23:27

anonymous: if you can tell us to use our real names, why dun you address it to us? dont have to use initials ok. humji

Ha..i tink these ppl just dun understand English if u ask mi. I already said that I m not responsible for ur assumptions and guilty conscience. Fancy accusing me of offending all of u with the initials of my post two daes ago. I tink i haf to change it all to black font since these ppl like to make assumptions, i dun want to lie in the cemetary just because of their wrong assumptions...wad a pain to explain. I m referring to a real dog which my neighbour keep for goodness sake. Is ur name called terry and are u a chi wa wa species? I doubt so right? Pls ask before u make assumptions pls. Stop making a fuss in my blog just becuz of a dog i hate. FDD..wad the shit..full of creative ideas. zzzzzz. You ppl aint dogs okie, i tried to treat all of u nicely, but u ppl keep pointing out all my faults. Why must u do tt when i nv offended u? Oh becuz i m a nerd or just because i m fat? So being friendly is wrong? Gonna edit my post to make it much more clearer abt the dog thing. I M NOT REFERRING TO ANIONE BUT MY NEIGHBOUR'S DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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whirlwind inside of my head..

Exams r over...finally. Been waiting for tis dae for quite some time, though now i m starting to hope that time will turn back to the time when i was studying for exams. Why? Cuz i m pre occupied with exams in my mind. Now that there r nth else to tink abt, except the exam results, i m gonna start to letting my mind go into a whirlwind condition. Well it started in the bus, before i even stepped into my home. Yes, i wanted to give up on my past, and carry on looking for another girl. But sometimes, things r easier said than done. Why does she alwaes appears to be haunting my memories every now and den. Recently, i tot i was serious abt one girl and decided to leave my past once and for all, even if the girl rejects mi. But in the end i found out, it was merely a sort of illusion. I was in a rush to leave my past that i m not even sure which girl m i serious abt, just pick ani one who r around me. It will be a mega bummer if anithing bad happens. I wonder how long is she going 2 stay in my memory, why m i NOT MOVING ON! I AINT MOVING ON AT ALL!!! I M REALLIE FRUSTRATED!!! I WANT TO MOVE ON! I WANT TO MOVE ON!!! ITS LIKE A WHIRLWIND INSIDE OF MY HEAD! UNBEARABLE!!!!!!!!!!!

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one childish post..

TSKTSK: tsktsk.. i doubt that person isnt showing u attitude.. i think it's u who is thinking too much. HAHAdon think so highly of urself ya?

Dun tink if u put it tis wae i wun noe wad u mean, i m not smart but i aint stupid either. Think too highly of myself? When did i do that? I just asked for u ppl to treat me a bit better thats all. So i dun deserve the basic respect? What did i do to u aniwae? I haf an idea whu u r, but since u r such a coward i wun force u to identify urself and i wun bother to reveal ur name here. You asked mi to stop being so childish, den wads this tag all about? Pot calling the kettle black arent you? I tink u r worse. And also, stop assuming that my entries has got anything to do with you, i m not responsible for ur assumptions and ur guilty conscience. You entered my space, and u chose to spoil my tagboard. Would u like it if i were to that to u? Pls think twice before u do anithing.

I hate that FREAKIN DAMNED DOG!!

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Happy Birthday!

Before moving on with my entry, i would like to wish Audrey a Happy 17th Birthday! Best wishes and may God Bless u in wadever u do!

Okay back to todae. I reached school to study at around 9:45am. Ben is late, cuz he need to cut hair before he go for his interview which is in the afternoon. Booked two tutorial rooms, cuz To Fai needs another for his frens. And lucky i did book two, cuz the tutorial room became too noisy to study that i haf to go over to To Fai's rm to study which is much quieter. Managed to fish out some important points for tmr's exam. Hope I will be able to clear it.

Pre ordered Jay Chou's new album 《〈依然范特西〉》on the wae home. Whoa~ i tink jay chou ran out of ideas for his music albums huh? Its just a modified name from his second album. Kinda early tis year. Maybe becuz last year release was esp. late, tts why i didnt realise that his album is coming out soon. Well shall stop here, gonna start mugging soon.

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finally a satisfied blog background..

Find this background quite cool..i tink it is the best, though it is a bit scary. 'Nuff abt the blog, lets tok abt the life todae. Well todae was quite disappointing. Woke up late for Church, tis is a sin i hope i will never ever repeat again, it displeases God. Initially was suppose to be at Centrepoint foodcourt studying, cuz Ben suggested as that place is quite quiet. However, i received his sms at the bus stop, saying that they decided to study at one of their classmate's hse. I m not from their class, kinda awkward if i were to go. Moreover, i dunnoe that person well also, only noes that he give mi attitude. I have no authority or shld i sae i m treated like dust if i were to go there and study. Its already like this in school But in school, there r two main factors in which they haf to look out for before they give mi attitude:

1) They have to give Ben face, if not he will not teach them.

2) The school is nt their property, they cant do anithing they want with mi in school.

I dun reallie like the idea of me being pardoned and excused becuz of someone else's face. If u dun want me around, or there is something which you dun like abt me, just shoot. Dun alwaes sae "I give Ben face, i dun argue with u." Everyone deserves basic respect. Who are you to determine whu deserves respect? Are you the Lord? They might not have said it openly, but it is all written in their faces. I m tired of tearing down masks one by one. Why cant students study harmoniously? Why must there be the so called "clans" in schools. If you people want to bash me up, feel free to do so. If you ppl can get me that is.. Strength isnt everything in unarmed combat. What I can see from these people is they count on brute strength. Agility and tactics is the main point of combat. Moreover, these people count on brute strength to make others fear them. I fear only the One who has the ability to destroy both my soul and body, which is the Lord, my Father. I respect people whu fears and serve the Lord.

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carelessness will kill me one dae..

Sorry for not updating yesterdae, was trying to figure out something abt HTML. The maths paper was basically a manageable paper, just that i was too careless. I prayed to the Lord for a paper which i can manage, so did the rest of my brothers and sisters in Christ. The Lord answered my prayer, He indeed gave me a manageable paper. But i let Him down. Why? I was careless! Too careless! If i dun learn to be careful soon, i will definitely let my carelessness kill me..

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maths paper..

Its maths paper tmr. After tmr i will be able to breathe for a while before i mug on for the other two modules. Hope i can get at least a C for all modules. Getting a D is okie..but i dun 1 my g.p.a to stay where it is now..it is embarassing...

I hope this isnt a dream, reallie hope it isnt. If it is, pls wake me up. Even if you have to break my heart, pls wake mi up if this is all a dream, i dun 1 2 live in a virtual reality world. If u reallie aint the one for me, i hope u will tell mi so that i wun hang on for too long and hurt myself badly like my last fall..

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Happy days!

Was reallie happy todae despite being stress for exams. Why? Cuz i finally reconciled with my pal Alvin. Cheers=DD. Thanks to all the people whu r alwaes there during the period when i was alone, thank you all veri much. Now frens problem is settled, have to settle the horror---> exams. Hope maths wun be as disastrous as the prev. paper.

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silence is a virtue

Been at home for the whole dae to reflect. I come up with a conclusion, silence is a virtue. Even if the others encourages u to joke, you will still get into trouble when u abide their orders. So why not just be silent and do nothing. When u r silent, nobody can pick on u, except the oral examiners. Thanks jereline for the tag, it doesnt matter what he sae. He doeesnt haf the guts to identify himself, i dun entertain cowards.

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damn sianz..is there justice in this world

Reallie veri disappointed. I noe i m not perfect, in fact no one is. If there are faults which u see in me.. tell mi straight like Chris and Mel. They arent evil people, they just want me to change so that others will have better opinions abt me. In fact they r people whom i wun haf to take the trouble to unmask, they r people whu r true and sincere. You people noe how to curse me, talk behind my back, give me curses, give me all sorts of rubbish, but u noe u all forgotten to give me sth important..and that is time. I cant change within a dae. Havnt u ppl heard of this chinese phrase,"It takes one to learn evil within 3 daes and 3 years to change." You people arent giving me a single second. Every minute, every second, every dae, i m like hearing things. "Darren is childish...darren is blah blah blah" I noe that, Mel and Chris took the trouble to tell mi that so that i will change for the better. So why nt give me time to change? And sometimes, ppl r being downright unreasonable. Take tis issue for example, it once happened to mi. People were writing in their blogs..that i m turning gay cuz i have been turned down in love so many times. The moment i confront them about this, they sae "Darren stop being childish. Come on it is just A JOKE!." And whenever i joke with dem about the same issue..they started getting worked up. So you people can joke and i cant? Theres no justice in tis. And mind u, i emphasised in my entry that it is JUST A JOKE, and u haf to dirty my tagboard for tt? I cant even joke, so i m not allowed to speak? in that case THANK YOU VERY MUCH, i wun tok animore...i will take everything seriously from now on? Happy? Darren Cyrus Ng aint allowed to tok in school. Bet some ppl is going 2 sae i m real hum chee or childish by nt appearing in sch tmr. I am not! I am just trying my best not to put both Ian and Ben in a difficult spot. Both r nice people. Plus everyone is giving Ben face whenever i m present, but deep down they dun 1 mi around. Next time, if u dun 1 mi around just tell mi, dun haf 2 give anione face. Just simple say, "Darren, pls just fuk off." I will leave immediately okie?

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not going 2 school tmr..

haiz...i m not going 2 school tmr. I tot people nowadaes dun take jokes to heart...guess i was wrong. If i were to appear in school tmr, probably will get myself skinned alive. Creeps..i dun tink i will be going school tmr. Today they were still laughing abt this, so i tot he wun get offended since it is just a joke..i emphasised too in my entry that it is just a joke. But it seems that Ian's frens arent those whu take their fren as jokes. This i respect them. Since it is my fault, i tink i m gonna stay at home, i still want my life. Guess Chris was darn rite abt mi, my character irks the people around me. I m gonna stay at home, train myself to be another Rukawa or Mikagami, whu keeps quiet most of the time. I m so darn disappointed todae, gosh i gt some rubbish to clear now, gotta blast. Dun wurry guys...i will be back the dae after next. I just have no face to face Ian. Aniwae, Happy Birthday Ian and sorry for everything..it wasnt on purpose ya..

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the last call

went to church as usual todae..duh its Sabbath. It is a veri rush dae for me...I m so tired rite now(sorry for stealing ur line raymond). Woke up early in the morning, dressed up formally and went straight to Church. I tink i gonna buy more formal shirts for myself, or my choice is veri limited for my Sunday worships. Today God's message is strong and clear, thru His faithful servant Mr Huang Ee Yuan. Most of the time, it is not God whu dun 1 2 communicate with us. God WANTS to talk to us. He used Samuel as an example, Samuel was only a toddler when God speak to him. Why? Cuz Samuel listens to Him. God speaks with anione whu wants to listen to Him. Though now God does not speak with us verbally, God's words is easily available around us. The Bible is widely published, and wads more it comes out with different translations every now and then. If we dun touch the Bible, den hw will we noe wad's God message to us?

After Church, rushed home to have my lunch before i rush to AMK macs to meet Ben and the rest. Its the last call for exam paper tmr, kinda nervous. I hope the lecturer wun be tt sly to come out those we didnt study, creeps. And Chris is being a real pessimist todae. You noe wad he told us? He said that he is currently planning which class shld he opt for when he repeats one of the modules "Microprocessor Technology". Come on lar Chris, there is still one more week left, cant give up now. Giving up now means that you choose to end the exam early. Aniwae, good luck to all taking exams tmr. May God bless u peeps!

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Touching anime video

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LOVE THIS HYMN LOADS.

Be Thou My Vision

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

This is my fav. part of this hymn :) :

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art

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far sighted..

Feeling abit better than yesterdae. I apologise for my temper for yesterdae, the weight on my shoulders become so heavy all of a sudden. My bro came back from the hostel todae, so as usual watched "mythbusters" on his laptop. Gave me quite a shock, seeing this particular episode. The candy which i ate frequently(mentos) could cause such a mess. The mythbusters tested the effect of dropping a mentos candy into a bottle of diet coke. You wun guessed wad happen, the diet coke splurted upwards 10 feet high. Whoa..i wonder wad will happen if u try tis at home or in parties. This might be a new trick for birthdae screwers. Next on the list is the making of the japanese samurai sword, katana. It still remains as a climatic part of the history of Japan. Japanese refuse to eliminate this weapon from their culture and life even when gunpowder and cannons came into the world. Kind of emotional, and reallie sad when i watch this show. The Japanese use their sword to chop the heads of people during World War II. They committed atrocities and murder using their most respected creation of their culture. They even considered the sword as the soul of the warrior. But wad did they use it for? The killings in Nanjing, wiping every single living human. They kill man and behead them. For women, rape them before killing dem. Man tends to commit all sorts of atrocities when they had a little acheivement in their life, and i just dun understand why. Well, like wad the Bible sae, the love of many has certainly grown cold. Just feel so disappointed sometimes when i see these things.

Did something reallie funnie todae. Tried being far sighted by naming my future children when i hadnt even a girlfren. This is my plan:

Daughters: 1st Agnes
2nd Belle
3rd Cassandra

Sons: 1st Aaron
2nd Luke
3rd Zion

Its not as if i want six children in future, my future wife will probably die if she hears this. One or two is my target. However, "accidents" do happen in life, so have to make some preparations and planning in case ani accidents happened lolx. Moreover, i cant determine the gender of the baby before he/she is born, so just in case haha.

Tmr meeting Ben and gang at AMK macs to study one last time before getting on to the battlefield for the first fight; against Data Network Communication.
GET READY CUZ WE WILL KNOCK YOU OFF BEFORE YOU KNOCK US TO REPEAT THIS MODULE!!!
haha i m nuts!

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BAD TEMPERED!

Dunnoe wads got into me todae, my mood turned BERSERK when i got home from school. I was reallie bad tempered, practically shouting when i was asked to do sth. Must be becuz of my current feelings, making mi so stressed up. I reallie home i m not starting to fall in luv again, i reallie dun 1 2...i m darned tired for tis. Her actions, her feelings towards mi..is making so mixed up. I m reallie mixed up now...dunnoe wad shld i do. She can be reallie nice to me...and real foul towards mi at times. I reallie dunnoe hw she feel. Okay even if she does likes mi...i cant accept her. My religon forbids me to date someone whu is nt within my religon basis. I hope tis is just a false feeling...or i will be loving a girl whom i shouldnt love...again. zzzzzzz...life is just so zzzzz

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disappointed..

I thought only girls tend to get emotional sometimes, i didnt noe guys get emotional too. And the guy is none other than myself. All of a sudden i feel so disappointed over so many things. First off all, my jie pushed all the responsibility to mil i m responsible for the quarrel between Ben and her. After a while, i recovered..so i didnt affect mi much. Was in a okay mood on the wae home. But when i went blog hopping a few mins ago, i started feeling reallie disappointed. I stopped by Lp's blog. Todae is her birthdae, i couldnt get thru her phone so i decided to leave a birthdae msg on her tagboard. Well might as well do it here too:

Happy Sixteenth Birthday Cham Li Ping!

I was reallie disappointed when i took a peek at her frens list. Well i reallie treat her as my sister, thought she nv call mi brother. I alwaes assume that she said it in her heart cuz i remember her telling mi that her bf might get the wrong idea if she was to declare our relationship in her blog. But i was totally wrong, that was just an excuse. I m not paranoid or wad. I noe todae's entry is gonna attract some bastards whu r going to tag things like, "Who wants to be ur godsister? dun be f******* thick skin blah blah blah." I seen this kinda tags in my tagboard before. But i dun give a shit abt u ppl, go and fly ur damn kite and stop bothering my peaceful life. Well, now i remember mark is her godbro too. She acknowledge him as her godbro on her blog. If she is afraid that her boifren might misunderstand...den why does he still acknowledge mark on her blog den? So i m reallie a nobody.. And wads so good abt mark aniwae? As far as i can remember, he tends to a bit flashy; he cant keep anithing great about himself to himself. Wadever her do for his godsisters, he has to announce it to the whole world. As far as i noe, he cares little for dem, i m not trying to fabricate nonsense here. Sometimes, i tink my sacrifice for my godsisters are reallie redundant. Look at Mark? He doesnt reallie do anithing for them, having close body contact with dem and he earned the title. I care for dem and kept it within myself, never tried to have close body contact with dem..NEVER EVER DID. Alwaes kept my distance from dem so as to show dem some respect. In the end, they respect those whu get touchy with dem. Kar Wee is one good example. I was reallie damn disapponted. I was wondering to myself..shld i just 4get dem and break ties with dem? They care little or nothing for mi. No wonder they never pick up my calls...no wonder they nv tell mi anithing..i m just a nobody. Haiz i m in a mess rite now, flirts seems to be more well respected in society now.

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a ride to the "gates of hell"

Today went to school as usual to study for the coming examinations. Todae is the arrival of the "SWAT team". Zhang Jing and Li Qing, the pros in academic studies came down to help us with our studies. I m reallie greatful to dem, learnt quite a lot when they taught mi those which i couldnt understand no matter hw hard i study. Ben is damn stress todae over my jie, ate three bowls of noodles, gave me a darn shock. Guess love isnt all tt sweet at times.

After studying, Liqing plan to help Ben by asking him to go Yishun to meet my jie to clear the air. I started to look at Liqing at a different angle. She can be reallie sweet and helpful at times, although sometimes she just like to shoot mouths without using her brains. Well, things went fine, both of dem r holding hands once again. I smiled and waited for bus 853, which brings mi to another climatic phase of today's life.

I remembered clearly that there is a bus 853 at the bustop near my place. I was darn wrong. The bus took mi to a very very secluded bus interchange. That place is reallie deserted and spooky. I walked as fast as I could to a more crowded place which is right ahead. The more I walk, the more I feel that this is someplace which i shldnt go, especially at this hour. And i was hell rite, the moment i walk out of that reallie secluded place, i finally realised where i am. The sin city of singapore---> Geylang. I was like, "What the...this is definitely an unworthy trip to the "gates of hell"". I ran as fast as i could to the nearest bus stop. Lucky enough, there is a bus 13 there, i could finally go home! Reallie have to praise the Lord for helping mi find my way home. It was reallie the Lord's blessing that i finally made it home. Who knows what will happen to me at that kind of area. I was reallie thankful to my Father above for guiding mi home, He reallie does walks with me wherever i go.

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gonna be peaceloving yeah \/

Found out something which i m pleased to hear, samantha seems to swear lesser now. I remembered telling her online to minimise the use of vulgarities becuz she is a girl. Now, i seldom see, or i never see her sweared in her blog animore. Its great to have a sister whu listens to ur advice.

And yeah, my temper seems to be much better now. Aint that rough like last time, havnt been getting into fights since i entered poly, and i call that an acheivement. I m trying to be a peaceloving guy, though sometimes it is just so hard to be Mr Nice Guy. Cuz there r times when people take ur kindness for granted. But I will take it as I m doing all this to honour the name of Christ. Anyone whu needs help, i will be glad to help. Hope i can learn to smile more sincerely. It seems that I m alwaes forced to smile or sth. Maybe cuz there arent many happy thing happening around me.

I wanna be successful in wadever i do, but the road isnt going to be easy. There bound to be some humps and bumps. I hope i could overcome them eventually. Laziness is one of the greatest hurdle i haf 2 overcome. I realise that sometimes i can never study consistently like the others. Reallie hyper and haf to walk around. Hope someone will apply some superglue on my ass so that i will be stuck on the chair to study. I pray to the Lord that He will help me concentrate whenever i m studying, i dun 1 2 be the one whu is alwaes slacking while others is studying. I have planned out my future properly, i hope its not going to ruin just becuz of my plain laziness.

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problems of man...fragileness of life..

Todae went to school to study again. I was early todae, but Ben's classmate haf alreadi booked a tutorial room, so i need 2 book. Though i studied quite alot todae, i tink tis is the worse session i had out of the three daes of studying.

Todae, alot of unhappy things happen among us. Though i m not involved in ani of these unhappy things...i still think it affects mi greatly as these are my good frens. Firstly, both my jie and ben quarelled..for i dunnoe wad reason. Seriously sometimes, i see the problems of getting a girlfren. Besides frens and academic studies, Ben has to worry abt my jie. My jie is nice, but there are times where she throw tantrums. And when she does, mostly it is reallie unreasonable. Den it is Ben and Thomas, though the problems is settled todae. There are reallie many problems which man have to face in life. When the problem is too much for us to take, it reflects on the fragileness of life. So i m intending to introduce these frens of mine to Christ. The accpetance of Christ can solve these problems. Our Father takes care of His sons and daughters, He promised to end the sufferings and pain. Though i still face problems in life, but at least i noe these period of time is only temporary, as my Father will bring me home once my time is up.

Had a great talk with Ben. Though he is facing his own problems, which seems more serious than mine, he is able to give me some sound advice. For Alvin's case, I can totally hack care about it. Firstly, it isnt mi who doesnt want resolve this conflict, it is him. I tried many ways to resolve the conflict, but he just push it awae. So who is the unreasonable one? And moreover, i dun want to tok 2 him if he doesnt want to tok, or i will end up toking to the wall. Ben told mi that he has face the exact problem in his sec school. His best fren refused to tok to him for half a year just becuz of one small little conflict. In the end, his fren resolved the conflict. So i guess i haf to wait for the person whu started the conflict to resolved it. Thanks Ben, i will remember these useful advice that u give mi. And i hope the person whu caused the conflict knows hw to end it.

As for my relationship problem, i tink made my point pretty clear after i handed her everything. I just want her to happy for now. Wadever that i have been worrying abt, i will leave it all to God. A stubborn and fool like mi is in no position to make ani decisions in love. I will leave it to my Lord to help mi find the route i m suppose 2 take, and the relationship between me and her. A fren, a foe, more than a fren...i m leaving all to the Lord to decide. I will be patiently waiting for His decision. It might be 10 years or 20 years later, but i m willing to wait patiently for the answer.

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Love this animation since my primary school days; Samurai X. Its a story abt an ex assasin whu turned into a wanderer cuz he dun 1 2 shed anione's blood animore. A anime which discourages violence based on a true samurai's story. Character names are fictional, but the storyline is true. How i hope that the world will contain less killings and violence. The pathetic world we r living in. The killings, the jealousy, the hatred, the violence is almost unbearable. Violence can never solve problems, it will create more problems. Using violence to solve problems will only create more hatred between people. Even if ppl submit to u, it doesnt mean the problem is solved once and for all. U used violence against tt person, he might be tinking of retreating and find a wae to deal with u. I hope tis world will no longer have ani bloodshed, and that everyone will solve problems bloodlessly.

I love the photo caption:

"And sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders"

Thats hw i feel most of the time.

Pls leave those girls alone. The wae u r blogging, it reallie irks mi. You do wad you want alwaes, you force others to abide you. Who do you think you are? God? Let me tell u tis, i m not afraid of u, do not terrorise these innocent girls. I m already controlling my temper...dun force me...

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Da Vinci Code broken

Todae went to Church for fellowship. Yue Xiang was in charged of the sharing of "Breaking the Da Vinci Code". Its a novel written by Dan Brown, with lots of scandals in it which are against Christianity. Well basically, if u read the Bible regularly, u wun get swayed by this kind of scandals. Besides, every once in a while, there is bound to be someone like Dan Brown coming up with another "hot" book.

Samantha, thanks for cheering mi up. I m okie reallie..just abit troubled by the current state of life, makes mi reallie upset. Haha, so difficult to find someone whu has the exact character as mine. Samantha is reallie a photocopied image of mi; her character i mean. The wae she speaks, the wae she acts, the problems she faced, are all somehow related to mine. Cant hlp but shower her with all the care and concerns. But somehow, i dunnoe hw tis will last. Alvin used 2 be my best pal, other call us "partners in crime"(just an abbreviation). In the end, things turned out ugly. I m afraid it might turn out the same between me and samantha, i dun want history to repeat itself. I reallie care and luv samantha as my younger sis, i hope she will nt leave mi. Hope everything will turn out fine. Hpe u r reading tis Samantha.

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another week left

As usual woke up an hour later than the time set on my handphone alarm clock. The weather was cooling as usual, so i took forty winks and woke up at around 8 plus. Luckily we are meeting at around 10:30am or i will be late. But Ben is late again, so i went into the campus straight as i m afraid the tutorial rooms might be taken. And praise the Lord, i took the last empty tutorial room before the other guy took it. He was right behind mi when i found the room, but i happened to open the door first, haha. So the room is mine! =.=

Waited for Ben and my jie to arrive, cuz my books r in my jie's locker. If she dun open the locker, i cant study as i dun haf the books. Den started studying for EG2120, and suprisingly i completed two tutorials. Quite a breakthru, but far from done. Another week more to study, hope i m in time.

Saw sth reallie strange in the bus, two girls in front of mi r acting like couples. Or maybe, they ARE couples. The moment, they alighted i shook my head. It seems that these kinda things is wad we call 'normal' nowadaes. I have nth against them reallie, though it is against the Bible. Well the environment they r living it, sometimes it is reallie the environment which forces these people to be in the state they r in. Yeah, of course some did it for nth, but most cases r becuz they couldnt face the truth or sth like tt, aint good at explaining it in words. So u can imagine hw we guys hurt girls sometimes. People alwaes sae tt i haf a strong man's pride, and others are alwaes in the wrong when a relationship didnt work out. They r seriously wrong, u can apply tt to someone else i noe though. I understand girl's feelings too. I read the newspaper, i watched the news, and i m aware of my frens problem. I can sae tt us guys hurt girls reallie badly without noeing it. Sometimes, it is not just a direct affection of the heart. It might be the wae we treat ppl around us. If we treat the ppl around us shabbily and cruelly, u tink the girl will feel secure around u? And most of the time, guys(mostly the good looking ones) get bored of their own partner, and started looking for new targets. Some are real straight and asked for a breakup straight awae. I m not standing on the side of girls, no. I dun take sides. I have godsisters and they all face the same problems. I thought its alwaes the guys whu stand to lose in the relationship. But now, i tink girls suffer more. The sister whom i cared for most, Samantha, faced the same problem too, till the pt she is unable to return to her old self.

However, guys DO face the same problem sometimes. Not all girls r that great. I remember when i was secondary one, i confessed to a girl that i like. As i was still young, i thought that everything would be successful as long as i confess. But no, the girl wasnt nice in rejecting mi also. "Would u pls look urself into the mirror before u start shooting mouths? Do u tink u r fit u fat piece of lard? Stop dreaming!" She even wrote a Tang "love" poem to mi, yeah quite "romantic" by changing all the love to hate in the poem. Yeah, Melvin told mi many times, to forgive and forget and that i m a selfish person. But i m still a human, and it is human nature to be not forgiving. I am able to forgive Alvin for leaving mi for no particular reason, i m able to forgive anione whu hurts mi, but i found it hard to forgive this girl. She was the reason why i took so long to confess to Audrey, she hurt my pride so bad that i was unable to face other girls with the self esteem i haf before i enter sec school. I can still communicate with her as frens, but forgiving her is reallie a hard task. If u tink that Audrey is the same as u, u r wrong. Though i said she hurts mi, but i was hurt becuz she rejected mi. Its as simple as that. She told mi plainly that she has no feelings for mi. Unlike u, u dug mi deep and destroyed mi totally. You didnt bother to apologise, up till now u still tink u were right by saying that to mi.

Melvin, dun get the wrong idea. I m not a selfish person. I didnt sae tt i will NEVER forgive her. As long as she confess that she reallie did hurt mi and wadever she said to mi was wrong, and apologises, i will forgive her straightawae. And i m not expecting her to make a public apology, thats ridiculous. Be it on MSN, on the phone or sms. As long as it is a sincere confession and apology, i will definitely forgive her. You can have my word for this. Of course, u might want to tell her abt tis. U should noe whu the her is, same batch as us.

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October baby

Character of an October baby:

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

The first three lines r quite true..but not the last line.

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basketball is real tiring...study is better.

Todae woke up at around 8 plus. Was intending to wake up at around 7 plus, but the weather was just so cool and just right for sleeping, so i slept for another hour before i crawl outta my bed unwillingly. Missed the 9am Bus 76, sheesh~ Shouldnt have lie in bed for another hr. Scared that i wun be able to find animore tutorial rooms if i were to go later, i took 135 to amk interchange and den ran all the wae to school. Manage to find one nice and empty one at blk p lvl 6. Started writing some notes for EG 2120, difficult and complicated module tis one. The calculations i will leave it abit later, so tt it will be fresh on my mind when i take the paper. Den went to play basketball at around 3 plus. Gosh i dunnoe when was the last time i did vigourous exercises, my stamina seems to get drained out very fast. Chest hurts when i ran faster to catch up with Ben tt agile monkey. Ran around the court will the basketball and i could hardly kp up with him. I think i haf to start training soon. At the end of everything, i conclude that studying is much better than playing basketball FOR TODAY ONLY. I was reallie tired, and real sticky, much less smelly. Grrr....i forgotten when i start concerning abt my personal hygeine, i couldnt stand not bathing for 3 hrs whenever i m at home, dunnoe why.

On the wae home, met qianhui at the mrt station. Didnt see her until she waved. Was intending to ask her if she saw her "sister" or her clone in FJ todae, but i banished the thought. Cuz if the answer is a yes, i definitely haf more to ask.

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89th posting..cheers :D

Haha my prev. blog stopped after my 16th posting. I discontinued it cuz i was so lazy to update. But after a while, i set up tis current blog. Feel tt posting an entry a dae makes mi abit lighter as i throw in all my emotions and feelings into this blog. This is my 89th posting! Hope it can still continue until i enter the army. Maybe at tt pt of time, i wun be able to update the blog regularly.

Tmr studying with the guys in sch. I will be going early to look for an empty tutorial room. Knowing that raymond will not be present if there isnt a tutorial room, i m destined to find one clean and cosy tutorial room for the guys tmr lolx. Planning to study 1st, and then play a bit of basketball. It has been ages since i move my muscles on the court, i will be getting abit to big to enter the door if i dun exercise soon. Want to start on EG2120-Data Network and Communications tmr as it is rather confusing. Calculations will be a slight problem. No, a bit more than a slight problem. Forget it, it is a BIG problem doing the calculations for tis module. And noeing this lecturer isnt my type of speaker, i was half asleep when i attended his lecturer. Grrrr...how i miss the classes i attended in sec sch. MUST CHIONG LIAO. I dun 1 2 retain, someone is bound 2 laugh till his teeth drop if i retain. I must prove that I, Ng Zhongqi Darren, isnt wasting my time in poly. I m here to SUCCEED. I will make you EAT YOUR WORDS!

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putting a stop to everything

Been worried about Samantha this few daes, i dun reallie noe wads wrong with her. She kept quiet, so i didnt bother 2 go on asking. Its her personal rights whether to tell others abt her problems, a godbrother like myself aint fit to press her for her problems. Time reallie flies, its alreadi 3 months since the dae i vowed that i will take care of Samantha like my own sister. I dunnoe why i alwaes feel a strong bond between the both of us. Whenever she is feeling sad and down, naturally i wun feel good. Maybe somehow, i see myself in her; my past tt is. Her life and the route she is taking, is similar to mine back when i was of her age. Tts why i hope i could help her walk out of this shadow as fast as possible. I dun want her to live life with regrets.

I noe ppl has been calling mi a pervert behind my back, due to the number of godsisters i have accepted. However, accepting godsisters doesnt mean i m a pervert pls. Do I get touchy with my godsisters when i m with dem? Come to tink of it, i dun even tok 2 dem when i see dem. I only tok 2 dem when they approach mi. This is called a flirt or a pervert? Oh den wad abt kar wee? Pulling girls' hair and zapping their ribs everytime they see dem. This called being "nice"? If u ppl aint tt narrow minded, saying tt i haf ulterior motives everytime i m nice to a person of the opposite sex, i wun be accepting girls with reputation as my godsister to avoid ani misunderstandings. These people, as described by Jay Chou as archers, are using different methods to shoot mi down. Even if i CLEARLY said tt they r just my sisters, they will go around spreading all kind of nonsense. Their mouths just wun stop polluting the fresh air around mi, pity that i cant make dem rot. I wun accept ani godsisters from now on, since some girls r trying to join the "Archers Gang", hard for mi to differentiate between those whu r sincere to mi and those whu r backstabbers. I m never good at differetiation, therotically or practically, no. So its better for mi to stop and do nothing. Hopefully, these "archers" will finally realise that they shooting nothing, nothing except their own reflection.

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good old memories

2dae woke up at around 8 plus to go Bartley. Thought it ends at 10. In the end, i reached Bartley around 9:30am to see students coming out from the sch. The whole thing started at 7am. Forget it, i m nt tt kind of person u can force out of bed just to go back to my old school. But going back to school certainly reminds mi of the good old daes. Our old assembly area, i remember having to walk to and fro between the class and the assembly area when our class refuse to keep quiet. Those good old times, see how our class is united. Though sometimes we are united for the wrong reason. But still, we share good and bad times as one class, we suffer and enjoy together as a class. I remembered someone did sth wrong and made mr rangen angry, our class went to push up position together and we didnt blamed anione and we didnt complain. What about now? Push the responsibility everywhere, waiting hopefully for someone to bear full responsibility. Vivegan and i laughed at the situation of our class when we were younger. At that time, we noe not the word "bitter" and "importance". Played everyday and manage to scrape through every year. Everything was fun at tt pt of time. Human are reallie weird creatures. When we were in Bartley, we were continuously asking, "When will be the dae tt i finally leave tis school?". And when we finally graduated from the school and moved on to a tertiary institution, we started tinking, "How i wish we can be back in Bartley." Living life with regrets, guess that is part of life. Went to watch Dragon Tiger Gates with Ben and frens, guess i will be sticking with tis grp of ppl, sincere and true ppl, unlike ppl whu is wolf in sheep's clothing trying to hurt mi. The show was okie, sad to see Nicolas Tse becoming so weak in the end.

Starting to look at the bright side of my life. There are somethings i cant have in life, no matter how hard i try. Love cant be forced, one cannot force someone to love him/her. Yes, she doesnt like mi, but whats more important is that she is alreadi saved, her soul is saved from the horrible punishment in hell. She accepted Jesus as her Saviour, which made mi smile whenever i tot of tis, at least the most important job is done. Now, i can peacefully and quietly be her guardian angel. Protecting her from harm and at the same time, not interferring in her life. Wadever i do for her, from this time forth, i will not mention it here. She will nv noe whu helped her when she needs help, i will make sure she nv finds out. Most importantly, i wish i could get out of her life. If possible, i hope my name will nv appear in her life again. Maybe tts the only thing i could do.

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root to all evil

I remember Peter once said somewhere in the Bible which Dr. Tang has yet to find it:

Greed is the root to all evil.

And i shld sae i totally agree with it. Greed can turn u into a totally different person. Someone whom u wun 1 2 get close to, someone horrible, someone whom have turned awae from God. There are many forms of greed, some might not noe that they themselves have already fallen into the web of greed. Greed isnt all about money. There is greed for wealth yes, but there are other forms of greed. Such as the greed for power, greed to win(to win at all cost in other words), greed for knowledge(gd if it is used in the correct wae and pursueing the correct knowledge). I would rather emphasise on the greed to win. You think winning at all costs isnt a form of greed? You are wrong. This is what Dr Tang once told mi:

"If you try to win everything, you will lose urself"

You will use all sorts of scheming methods to acheive ur goal. And at this point of time, frenship, family and ur loved one means nothing to u. All you want is to win. Risk the happiness of others 4 all u care, the only objective is to win. You can cause others to suffer from emotional breakdown in order to win. For example, you are afraid that someone unexpected might overshadow you in your studies. This person is ur best fren, someone is there for u shld u haf ani problems. U dun want ur fren to win u, though he hasnt reached tt point yet. You boycotted him, without telling him a reason. You sever frenship ties with him, noeing he is a emotional type and will suffer from emotional breakdown by doing this. You noe he is currently facing other major personal problems and chose to choose this time to sever frenship ties with him. Why? You want him to be unable to concentrate on his studies so he will never overshadow u in studies. In short, you want to win. But wads the use, u lost something more important than winning itself. You lost totally to the word GREED. Alvin u shld noe whu i m referring to. If you think that i m accusing u and that you can sue mi for slandering, then stop ur childish attitude and reconcile. Or i can tell u, this is the only thing which others can think of for ur childish behaviour, and that is you want to win. In no time, you are the only one whu will be left behind.

Melvin, thanks for your message, I m not angry and i m not going 2 write anithing nasty about you. Besides, telling the truth aint wrong. But seriously, after meeting her and handing over some stuff, i feel alot lighter. After all that dilly dallying. Thanks for everything. Oh and er, the thing about the greed to win which is mentioned above is not for you, i made it very clear so i hope you wun get the wrong idea. Once again, thank you.

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Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

Found 1 vulagrity in this lyrics, but overall..tis song is nice.

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams Lyrics

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's only me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

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Thank You

To all those whu r worried abt mi, thanks for all ur care and concerns. I am fine reallie. I m just momentarily suffering from a breakdown. I will be okie after a while, dun wurry abt mi.

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tired of life..

Not many ppl turned up for todae's tutorial. This is the last tutorial we are having with weng kee, sad. He is such a patient teacher, cant find a better person to teach us. Just finished watch the 9pm show. Ending--->Yixin and Weixiang. Throughout the whole show, i see myself in weixiang. I m nt referring to the point tt he is someone who love a girl unconditionally and willing to sacrifice anithing for her. What i m referring to is that Weixiang was suffering in silence when Yixin is with the other guy. The only difference is that Weixiang gt what he wants in the end. He got a perfect ending. Wad abt mi? I once sae tt i will not only love her 4 four years, i will make it ten, twenty and forever. But wad is the use? What IS THE USE?? Does she even care? I remember when i first confess to her, what did she sae? "So? I dun care" Why do i love someone whu doesnt give a damn abt mi? Why? why? I got condemned by her ex, when i didnt made ani noise. Are women all tt heartless? You women complained tt guys treat all of u like clothes, and we dun care abt hw u feel. Come and tink of it, arent u women the same? I m reallie damn tired of life, REALLIE TIRED OF LIFE! The girl whom i like for four years, end up to be the one whu hurts mi again and again without giving a damn abt mi getting hurt. The girl whom is the first girl i like when i was sec 1, she destroyed my pride and crippled mi bad enough tt it took mi a long time to stand up to continue in life. Audrey(tis time i have to put ur name), i dunnoe when will i be able to live life without thinking of u. I reallie DUNNOE! Pls forgive mi...i didnt mean to mention ur name here, i just couldnt take it ani longer. However, my promise still stands; i wun interfere in ur life animore. Even if i do, u wun noe abt it, i will nv let u noe. Live life well...

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one of the things i hate

One of the things i cant stand in life----> Arrogance

And sickening enough, my world is made up of arrogant ppl. Feel like puking throughout the EG2098 lecture. Cant believe a girl, A GIRL can be that arrogant. Girls themselves always think that guys are the arrogant ones cuz guys care only about their pride. Now its proven, girls can be just as arrogant, or even more arrogant than guys. I sat right behind her todae, and her voice is making me SICK, SICK SICK!!! Keep praising how great, talented and smart she is. YYPPY-->Yaya papaya. Worse of all, some handsome kid from A2 wrote a "love letter" to her. But Jiahao told me that it is just a joke, not serious at all. I told Jiahao luckily it is only a joke, or it will be a love story of Ru Hua and Nicolse Tse. I am not saying she is ugly or what, i m just stating the facts that her character and arrogance made her whole image so terrible to the view of the eye. YUCK! Stop being so arrogant, i feel so sick just listening to your arrogant speech. U tink ur big sized bodyguard will let me fear u? Sorry to tell you this, i despise that bodyguard of urs as much as i despise u. Moreover, i only fear God alone. For He is the only one who is capable of destroying the soul. The most tt useless bodyguard of urs can do to mi is to wreck my body, but he cant destroy the soul within my body. So go on, bring in ur dogs and ur gang or wadever, it doesnt matter. My soul is saved by the Lord and i no longer fear those whu can only destroy my body.

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prophecy fulfilled in my life

I remember a verse in the Bible saying:

"And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold...."

Matthew 24:12

I m afraid to sae that "she who must not be named" made me see hw true tis prophecy is. She neither feel for me nor care abt hw i feel. She feels nth for mi. Even if i were to die for her sake, i dun tink she will feel anithing for mi at all. I dunnoe...but the love of many HAVE gone cold, and i hate 2 admit tt she is one of dem...

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some planning done

Todae is my off dae despite the cancellation of yesterdae's nite class. Real bored with nth to do, so I decided to do something meaningful, i swept and mopped the whole house(might be having a fever todae). Normally, the only area which i will clean is my own room. After that, Aunt came and took use out for lunch in NTUC Hans. After lunch, accompany my grandma to buy some daily neccessities. Finally, still feeling bored, I went to do sth that no one will believe i will do. I went to plan my third year course elective. I went to analyse every single elective program in my diploma course and see which one i might be interested in. After analysing, these are my choices(might subject to change) :

CHOICE OF ELECTIVES FOR 3RD YEAR ECC

1. Internet Technology and Communications
2. Wafer Fabrication Technology
3. Automation Design
4. Embedded System Design
5. Wireless Communications
6. Telematics System

I didnt want to put wireless communication and telematics initially as those are some killer courses which i wun dream of getting in. However, i have no choice but to take it into consideration too. Hope i could get into the interenet technology and communications, i love that course.

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