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Adolf Hitler is a sick anti-Semitic
Today, I watched an Adolf Hitler documentary, "The Rise of Evil". On the cover of the CD case was this phrase, "The only thing necessary for good men to flourish is for good men to do nothing.." Edmund Burke. I dun reallie agree with Edmund Burke. Alrite, I agree with the entire message which he is trying to bring out. However I dun reallie agree in the wae he put it in words. "..good men to do nothing." There is no good men on earth. Dun get me wrong, this applies to women too, just tt men are the representatives of sin. Although Eve committed the first sin, the sin is transferred under the name of Adam. Currently, I dunnoe hw to edit this phrase, but I will try to find another word to replace the word "good". This documentary shows me how ruthless Adolf Hitler is. For a moment, you might be reallie convinced by his speech, he is reallie a charismatic speaker. I have to admit during the early part of the documentary, I supported his views. Until he say, "...the Jews! We must crush this vermins!", I changed my views. Christians should noe that Jews are a special grp of people whom the Lord has chosen. They are Abraham's heir, and God promised to curse those whu curse them.
Jews were deprived of their citizenship, sent to concentration camps, killed by poison. Half of dem were children. Sad to say the death of Hitler isnt the end of atrocities. There is a dictator whu is worse than Hitler whu has yet to come. No one noes his name, but he is known as "the Beast" or "Son of Perdition" He will rise during the last seven years.
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turning 18 real soon...so wad..?
Turning 18 in approxiametly a week's time. Yeah..so what? To many ppl out there, turning 18 is like a milestone in their life, something reallie special. Well, to mi it is nth. I wonder hw many ppl will remember when's my birthdae tis year. Let's see the stats:
2004: Godsisters remembered on the dae itself when i told dem wad dae it was, so not counted. Considered as no one remembered my birthdae.
2005: None of my sisters remembered, no birthdae wishes, not even a last min wish or belated birthdae wishes, zero, much less birthdae presents. I tink only three remembered my birthdae, Alvin, Benedict and Kenneth
2006: I dunnoe, might be the same old ppl whu remembered
Now I know why raymond warned mi abt my godsisters. Yeah, I m beginning to wonder again, how many of dem reallie treat mi as their brother? I was tinking of cutting those whu didnt remembered my birthdae tis year off my list. However, I banished tt thought. I dun wish to be so ungentleman and petty. After all, it is only a dae which reminds u that u r another year closer to ur coffin, nthing much. Since I have already changed my blog address, I tink most of my sisters wun be able to see tis entry, or maybe they dun even bother to read my blog. Hereby wish all the October babies Happy Birthday in advance!
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Interview is over
Today is my baptism interview. The feeling was even more nervous before I receive my results for the current semester and class presentations. One wrong answer and I wun be able to qualitfy for water baptism. Two years of baptism class and still unable to qualify for baptism? How am i suppose 2 face the Lord like this. Basically, it went well. A few questions on what kind of changes in which I see in myself after I accepted Christ. Also, know which Church I belong to till the dae i die. However, the final decision still lies in the hands of Elder/Dr Yap. Most likely, if I m not wrong, I shld be able to qualify. If I do, it will commences on the 4th of November. Till then, all I can do presently is to pray and wait.
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my fav. song currently
最近
李圣杰
你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福
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unforgivable past
Didnt do much today, just read a little on Christian living as my Baptism interview commences tmr night. Went down to get her a Christmas present from the Bethesda Book centre, as well as running an errand for my grandmother. Guess who I saw in NTUC? One of the spark of the terrible rumour about me, Yen Yin. Was intending to sae hi at first, but stormed out of the supermarket fuming instead. Guess I havnt learn the importance of being forgiving. Well, that particular rumour cost me my pride, friendship and love. It will take me a great deal of time and energy to forgive these people who took these precious things awae from me. Well, it is not totally impossible for me to forgive. I can forgive wad they have done, I just want the mastermind to come out and clear things up. She just doesnt want to do so, making me a great sicko villian of Bartley. Hiding her pathetic ass in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, refusing to clear up the mess she caused. Worse of all, she shares the same surname as me, what a disgrace.
Sometimes, I wish I can turn back time. Maybe If hadnt been so low profile in school, things wouldnt haf turn out this wae. At least, lesser people will believe that rumour. Seriously, that arsehole carry things too far. Never in my life have I seen a girl so scheming, wonder what will she be in future. I have to be careful not to be too trusting, or people will climb all over me.
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will i ever get into the University?
Looking at my pathetic results and g.p.a, i dun tink I will be able to get myself into a local university. And I seriously wonder if i can acheive better results for the new semester. I hadnt much time left, another 3 sems and my time is up. If my results cant get mi into a local university, I will never gain fame in my family. I dun 1 2 be a loser. My grandfather toks openly abt my brother's acheivements, but hardly mention anything abt me. My aim is to crush my brother's fame by getting into a local university through the polytechnic. Guess I can never acheive it now. I have to replan my strategy once again. I dun wanna stay as a loser, I have to gain a place in my family. Why am I alwaes compared with him? Seriously, I dun understand why I lost to my brother. What has he done to get himself into a university? He didnt even study before the O levels until the last minute, and he is able to acheive better results than mi. I tried so hard to acheive top results but I barely scraped thru every level of my education path. This is reallie unbearable.
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quite hard on cash
Just analyse my personal finance status. Today's speaker, Mr Huang Ee Yuen, a loyal servant of God inspired mi with God's words, that I have to learn to offer to God willingly. Thats why now I am starting to take out the money from my weekly allowance first for the offerings. Mr Huang emphasised that we have to set aside the money for the offerings first, and not throwing the leftovers for offerings, it is the utmost disrespect.
Quite hard on cash, as I hadnt been working. Well...working isnt going to make things better, cuz i never have the chance to organise my pay. So I think I haf to go back to the good old daes back when i was in secondary school, saving every single cent of my lunch money. No choice, i am no rich kid whu can use money like nobody's business. Being frugal is the only way. I still have to thank God for letting me learn the hard way. At least I will know hw to spend money wisely in future.
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My newly created quote
Don't ask what God can do for you
Only regret that you have not done enough for Him
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reflections
Did some self reflections after church service todae. I feel that I m a lousy bro to samantha. Wad did I tell her? I told her whenever she needs mi. But whenever she needs mi, i aint there for her. Take this incident as an example, I didnt even noe she had a fever until i read her blog. I feel so useless sometimes, cant even keep my promise to my precious sis, I wonder hw m i suppose 2 face the world in future. Haiz...Samantha, if u r reading my blog, I m sorry...
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blog add changed
I have changed my blog address due to some unforseen circumstances. Just the blog address, nothing else. I m a person who does not like to start from scratch, so my 100+ entries are still alive. ~phew~
Samantha just told mi that she is feeling better. Poor girl, suffering from high fever before the exams. Must be burning midnite oils frequently to study. Was so worried for the whole dae for her cuz she didnt pick up my calls. In the end the fault lies with her handphone; it isnt with her. lolx! take good care of urself k xiaosam! Dun stress urself too hard, u will clear the exams de! Have faith in urself!
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sucidal semester
Received the time table for my next semester. Gosh it is especially fast this semester. I remember having to wait till the final week of my vacation before I am able to see my timetable. It is yet another sucidal semester. No, I should sae it is worse. Especially when I see this:
| Module Code | Module Abbr | Module Description |
| EG2005 | ETT | ELECTRONIC TROUBLESHOOTING TECHNIQUES |
| Facility Code | Facility Abbr | Facility Description |
| S.343A | ECL1 | Electronic Circuits Lab 1 |
| Staff ID | Name | Designation | Department | Telephone | Email Address |
| *CHEONGLC | CHEONG LAI CHOO | Part-Time Lecturer | School of Engineering(Electronics) |
| esther_clc@hotmail.com |
Of all the lecturers in this world, why must it be her? Does she even know wad she is teaching? I dun think so. The only thing I remember she is capable of doing is to tell us to self learn. During practical sessions, we have to figure out how to do the experiments on our own. Why? She dun even know whats the meaning of detailed explanation. Just draw a few stoopid diagrams on the whiteboard, done. We dun even dare to ask her questions when there a problem occur in our experiment. Everyone noes this phrase, "To err is human", as long as we are humans, we will definitely make mistakes. This lecturer continues the phrase for us "to blame is nature". Just kept blaming us for not paying attention to her so called "explanation". I was even called an "idiot" for connecting the wrong wire. May God bless our pitiful souls for next semester. With this tyrant teaching us, I cant imagine how much "fun" our class is going to have. Gees~ wad a school.
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Praise the Lord!
Praise the Lord as I have clear passed another semester. He had once again bless mi for another semester, gonna work more harder next semester. This time my results have a slight improvement. 1B, 1D, and the rest are Cs. Lesser Ds the previous semester. Just disappointed in only scoring a D for my Mathematics, thought it will be at least a C. But what more can i ask for? At least I dun haf 2 register myself online for the next semester. My dad wun haf to pay for another half a semester, guess he is going 2 get mi some sort of reward this time. The Lord always listen to my prayers, and I believe my faith with God is getting stronger. Even though I fall even after I prayed, and there are times where I failed, I soon found out that it is a blessing in disguise. So I urge my bros and sis in Christ, do NOT lose faith in the Lord even if you fail in life. The Lord has His reasons. Dr Tang told me a story of woman whu fell during a rock climbing incident and broke her spinal cord. She cannt walk for life, and her limbs are no longer as active as before. However this is what she wrote in one of her books,
"I have never thought I would have met with this accident. I couldnt understand why. However, it is also at this time, my relationship with God became much closer. I started to understand His words even better than when I was still strong and healthy. Being able to walk with Lord everyday beats any other blessings on Earth."
Walk with the Lord, He will make ur life more fruitful than you can never imagine.
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Modules registered for next sem
Went to e-services today and my new modules for the next semester is finally out. Does that mean tt i clear pass? Not gonna make assumptions for tt, i m afraid i might fail in the end. Have a feeling next semester is gonna be much more hectic than this semester. Just hope I can endure till I get my diploma. I have dreams I want to fulfill once I graduate, so I hope failure isnt gonna occur during my three years of polytechnic education.
Reading the Bible is the best way to pass time. The teaching in this flawless book definitely inspires me to be a better person and definitely, repent for sins i haf committed intentionally or unintentionally. However sometimes, I alwaes feel that without her reallie fills my life with emptiness and regrets. Sometimes, I want to start life afresh, I reallie do. I reallie hope i can just treat her as a fren or a sister. But I just cant do it. Whenever I see her, the feeling just come back. When can I get rid of this feeling for good?
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Fav. Hymn
Look to the Lamb of God
(Verse 1)
If you from sin are longing to be free,
Look to the Lamb of God!
He, to redeem you, died on Calvary
Look to the Lamb of God!
(chorus)
(Verse 2)
When Satan tempts, and doubts an fears assail,
Look to the Lamb of God!
You in His strength shall over all prevail,
Look to the Lamb of God!
(chorus)
(Verse 3)
Are you aweary, does the way seem long?
Look to the Lamb of God!
His love will cheer and fill your heart with song,
Look to the Lamb of God!
(chorus)
(Verse 4)
Fear not when shadows on your pathway fall,
Look to the Lamb of God!
In joy or sorrow Christ is all in all,
Look to the Lamb of God!
(chorus)
Chorus:
Look to the Lamb of God,
Look to the Lamb of God!
For He alone is able to save you
Look to the Lamb of God!
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Inspirational Hymn
Chinese Version:
谷中百合花
主耶稣是我良友，
由主胜得万有，
万人中救主是我最好灵友
主是谷中百合花，
我惟一需要他，
他能洗净我使我圣洁无瑕
悲伤时他来解忧，
患难是他保佑
一切忧愁全都放在主肩头
主是晨星灿烂光滑，
是古中百合花
万人中救主最美好我爱他
English Version:
I have found a friend in Jesus,
He's everything to me,
He's the fairest of ten-thousand to my soul,
The Lily of the Valley,
In Him alone I see,
All I need to cleanse and make me fully whole.
In sorrow He's my comfort,
In trouble He's my stay.
He tells me every care on Him to roll.
He's the Lily of the Valley,
The Bright and Morning Star,
He's the fairest of ten-thousand to my soul.
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Holidaes--->Crazy
In my cousin's hse now. Couldnt get to sleep, so i decided to post an entry since i hadnt been posting.
During the start of the semester, I was wondering everyday to myself; when will the holidays arrive? Now that the holidays r finally here, is start wondering again; when will the next sem starts. Yeah, that exactly what I feel now. Well, i dun exactly mean that studying is fun, its pretty simple logic that teens doesnt like to touch books unless during desperate cases. Its just that when school is on, I m able to somehow "block" myself from looking into my personal and pathetic past. Now that I m so free, I started to let my mind go wild. And when my mind go wild, it doesnt take mi to the future, where the slogan in advertisments alwaes sae, "Reach for ur dreams and unlock the door to a beautiful world...". My mind started flashbacking to the past. Well, i dun reallie likes to tink of it though, cuz it kind of bother mi sometimes. Some parts of it r sweet, some parts of it reallie pisses mi off. Thanks to the Bible, which is a flawless book by the inspiration of God, I am able to minimise the chances of my mind from flashbacking.
One word, holidaes stands for "crazy".
Apart of all this, I was into blog hopping these daes. Checking out the designs of blogs and also, the life of my frens and...ahem....her.
Well her entries definitely help mi a lot in life. It helps me to look at life at a different perspective. I hope she wun blame for quoting this out from her blog. Forgive me Audrey, but there r somethings that bares repeating:
"true love means never giving up"
I hope she reallie mean what she wrote. If she does, she may have already understood the wae I feel. I m not asking her to like accept me or wadever shit you silly people might think of, its ridiculous. Well, its a sense of relief to mi as what I want to gain at the end of this one sided relationship is not her acceptance, its not her in person, its not her heart, but her understanding in why i m so persistant. As long as she understands, there is nothing I think I should regret out of this. I dunno which fren she is talking about in her blog, but i m not going to make wild guesses or try to claim ani credits from it. As wad she had mentioned it to me earlier, I remembered vividly, "Pls DO NOT assume that my posting is abt u." But I m glad to see that particular phrase in her blog. It definitely tells mi that I didnt fell in love with the wrong person, even if i haf nothing to gain in this. Giving up marriage is a price i can live with for loving the correct person.
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at last..bigger storage (:
Dad bought me a 512MB Memory stick for my new phone yesterday. Finally, I can enjoy storage space which is larger than 256MB hahahaha! -_-|| I cant believe what i noob i m handling memory sticks. I took the memory stick out of the box and straightawae without checking, plugged it into my card reader. I have forgotten the fact that the memory stick is completely EMPTY. I have to plug it into my phone first, in order for my phone to upload the necessary folders into my memory stick, then i can upload images and musics. And what did I do? Happily creating new folders into that EMPTY memory stick and uploading files to it. When I plugged it back to my phone, "Hey! Where r all my files?!". Until then I realise that I left out one important step before uploading files. Carelessness can reallie kill mi sometimes.
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dedications..
白色的风筝 安静的纯真
真实的感觉 梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水 复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着 握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头
我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福
但爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭
我陪你走到最后
能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我
说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么
反正不会松手
我陪你走到最后
能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手
晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见
因为我在等待永远
白色的风筝 安静的纯真
真实的感觉 梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水 复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着 握住我的手
很可惜没有祝福
但爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭
我陪你走到最后
能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我
说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么
反正不会松手
我陪你走到最后
能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手
晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见
因为我在等待永远
谢谢你让我听见
因为我在等待永远
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My atrocious results coming out soon
Next Wednesday marks the end of my free and easy semester vacation. Why? My atrocious results will be delivered next Wednesday, 20th September 2006. I remembered about my results all of a sudden today, when my mum asked me the date of the release of my results as our neighbour's daughter's results are already out. Strange though, I hadnt been thinking about my results these two weeks of break. Now I start to panick. This is the only sem which I have absolute no or least confidence in clear passing. This time the lecturers are different from those who taught us in our prev. sem; they show NO MERCY. This is their theory put in simple terms: "Fail means fail, pass means pass. No such thing as pass becuz u r just a few more marks before the passing range. Grrrr...Mr Tan CB why arent u the module coordinator for my examinable modules this semester? I am leaving all these in God's hands now, He shall decide wad my grade should be.
I wonder if I have told anyone that I can choose 2 remain single, or be attached. I guess I have kept this as a secret for a long time, since last year? I know by saying this means that I have clean up my tagboard tmr as many will be hurling tons of insults onto my tagboard. Please, even the most xialan person on earth has someone whu likes him/her. Well enough of talking about these childish peeps, i will go on.
There is a girl currently waiting for me. I have persuaded her many times to give up on me, but up till now she still insists in waiting for me. Well I m not fit to comment, as I m just like her. I told her once, "Music, sports, arts, no matter hw many of these things r in my heart, u can still squeeze some more in. For love, I can only accept one. No matter, how u squeeze, i cant squeeze another one in.". I know hw she feels, I have been thru that. So I guess I will go on loving the girl whom I have loved since my second grade. Its not a decision made by the mind, its a decision made by the heart. I m guilty of actually accepting her two daes ago, when I dun even want to. So if she reads this blog, I m seriously sorry, look for another guy. We havent met in real life before, only met online. I have seen the girl whom I like for 3 years everydae in school. I notice her every actions, and my hearts hurt badly whenever she crys or whenever she is hurt. I can definitely be sure it is not just infactuation or some stupid puppy love. The love u had for me, i bet it is just infactuation. I will still continue loving her, until the day of my death. It will be real unfair to u if u were to reallie go into a relationship with me. So what if u have me and my heart is somewhere else. Trust me...i m not worth it..
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treasures of life..
Was watching 凰舞香罗。I realise there r somethings which we have to treasure in life, as life is unpredictable. Like Jing keng's younger bro Jing Qiang. He was about to change for the better when he got killed by a gang member of the fortune gang. That freakin bastard was obviously looking for trouble. He hold grudges againsthim and decided to teach him a lesson and bump him off silently. I reallie wish the people whom i loved andcare for would be safe and sound. Hope that nth bad will happen to them.
To Samantha: Good luck for ur exams! u can make it de! Jiayou!To Jereline: Thanks for helping post. Sorry to trouble u..internet connection gt problem. Thanks! <3 u!
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no more work for mi
no calls for two days, guess the restaurant have no place for an inexperienced amateur worker like myself. Feeling abit depressed this few daes, dunnoe the real reason behind these. Perhaps its becuz the holidaes are here again, therefore a free trip to lala land, makes mi ponder abt my past. Its nt healthy to look at the past, it will take a long time for mi to kick the habit. I m still pondering over somethings which I should have forgotten earlier.
Why m i still thinking of her? Why is it that i cant put her down and move on with life. Life has been quite miserable when i entered poly. With unsolved problems still clinging on my shoulders, i left Bartley my alma mater, full of doubts and questions. Well, it boils down to my character which causes all this problems to rise. I m shy by nature, and worse of all my self esteem has been hurt more than once by the same girl. Therefore it is no wonder i couldnt speak up in front of girls, unlike kar wee whu seems to have no sense of shame at all. I always thought I m the worst guy a girl can ever have, so I didnt bother to confess to the girl i like. Even under peer pressure, i fabricate an imaginary crush to mislead my frens. So throughout the years of my secondary education, no one taunted or made fun of mi regarding the girl i reallie luv. However, people like Ng Shu Juan can easily spoil ani relationship u r having. This girl is real scheming. I remember making frens with her cuz i tot she was reallie friendly and was sure she is someone whu doesnt backstab. But i was wrong, she became the first girl whu backstabbed mi. Although i have already forgiven her, but i cant bring myself to forget what she has done to mi. But it is also den i realised that Audrey(sorry to mention it again) didnt noe me well, neither does she trust me. If she had trusted me, things wouldnt have turned out this wae. So I think quiet guys tend to lose out in relationships. Guess I will just have to get use to my single and lonely life.
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你可不要惹我
马不知脸长的臭女人。把我们男人当作你家里的洋娃娃，玩够了就丢去一边。你知不知道“羞耻”这两个字怎么写？ 我真的要请您高抬贵手，千万不要告诉任何人你是在南洋理工学院上课，要不然我们的面子不知要往哪儿摆。刚送走了一个瘟神，又来一个不知廉耻的女人， 南洋不知得罪了何方神圣才会有这种“福气” 收留像你这种女人为学生。你可不要来惹我，除非你想曾为被我打的第一位女生。
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Life is simple.
Watched Tokyo Drift once again today. Well I know the people out there are only interested in the drifts and cars in this movie. They have neglected the moral values which are taught in this movie. Yeah many might say, "What moral values can a few Yakuzas in the underworld teach?". You are wrong. I remember one of the main character, Han, saying this, "Life is simple, you make choices and u dun look back". Although this is nt reallie considered as a moral value, but it teaches us not to look back. I totally agree with what he said. Life can be simple. Most of the time we people made it look complicated because we hate to face the consequences behind the choices we have made. Sad to sae, i m also one of those who dare not face the consequences. My problems are simple initially, but i kept running away. If I have confessed earlier, things would not have turn out this way. I alwaes said I have already let it go. But wad happened in the end? I started looking back, which invites all the critics into my tagboard.
"Life is simple, you make choices and u dun look back". This is what I m going to follow from today onwards.
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right ear lost sense of hearing..
Didnt go to Church today. I prepared everything, including my attire for this morning. But something bad happened, my right ear lost sense of hearing temporarily. Conditions improved after breakfast, but the sounds around mi tends to be more muffled than usual. Dad came early to take my grandma, sis and myself home from my cousin's place. Without hesitation, I asked my mum to attend to my ear the moment i stepped into my house. She tried to dig deep into my ear. Things are much better now, but my ear still feels numb internally. My mum told mi that my ear is swollen internally. I think it is due to the continuous blasting of music, esp. these few weeks when I m feeling quite vexed. I tend to raise the volume of my mp3 player to its highest, hoping to destress myself. In the end, not only did I not destress myself, I have lost my sense of hearing. Next time, I will pray instead of listening to loud music. This is a real valuable lesson for me, I will learn to control the volume of my mp3 player whenever i tune into it..
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a hero?
Met an old friend, Joe Goh, on my way home todae. He is my primary school friend, as well as my CO buddy. Whoa he certainly changed alot. The innocent guy next door turned into an american punk, haha. Well i didnt noe hw he noes my blog address, but he's been reading my blog quite often, and of course he is interested to know abt my relationship life. Well, i told him i had long given up, as long as the girl is safe and sound, i dun mind her not even realising that i exist. Guess what did he sae? "I dunno abt this, but u r going to end up with nothing for being a hero." Well maybe he has gotten some western influence in his mind. I know wad i m doing. If ending up with nothing is the consequences i haf to face, den i will face it..
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Long but worthwhile wait.
Jay Chou's new album Still Fantasy marks another successful chapter in the music genius's music career on the 8th of September 2006. His songs still havnt change for years. Each of his melodious music can probably make u fly a few inches high. Great songs, I simply love it. Jay Chou rocks!
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in my couz's hse.
In my couz's hse now blogging. No hard feelings but his house is real big and inconvinient for me to move freely. However, I sure envy my couz having such a splendid and remarkable father. Keeping a house like his aint cheap if u ask mi. He must be well-fed with a silver spoon in his mouth since young. Well if u tink my couz is some spolit brat cuz he is rich, den u r absolutely wrong. I know this boy since young, he never put on airs when he is around me. Despite my father's qualifications, his family nv looked down on us. I guess he is the best cousin I ever have. And also, one whom I know is worth to stand up for. I remember beating up a smug Indian guy in the playground because he bullied my cousin. Well I never regretted that, though I m still young.
Saw my couz's blog in his house PC. Haha fancy asking him to link me up in his own PC. Weird things happens all the time, kinda hard to prevent it yar?
Went to see her blog today, despite struggling on whether or not to enter her blog. Thought she was facing some major problems recently. Was intending to call her up, but on the second thought "no interferring, remember?". Haha, restricted zone thats what I called it. Never mind den, i doubt is anithing serious aniwae. If it is downright serious, you blessed people wun even be seeing me bloggin abt her.
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Dragon Tiger Gates
Due to extreme boredom at home, I decided to translate the introduction of the movie "Dragon Tiger Gates" to English:
"Dragon Tiger Gates is founded by two powerful pugilists Wang Xiang Long and Wang Fu Hu. Seeing that the weak and the helpless getting bullied by villians, they are determined to strengethen these people by teaching them martial arts for self-defense. They even took in helpless orphans, determined to nurture them into martial arts experts, hoping they will be of help to the society in future. From then onwards, "Dragon Tiger Gates" represents righteousness. Youths from different places are proud to be part of "Dragon Tiger Gates". During the milestone age of "Dragon Tiger Gates", the son of one of the founders Wang Fu Hu, Wang Xiao Long decided to leave despite "Dragon Tiger Gates" popularity and honour. As a result, the two brothers Wang Xiao Long and Wang Xiao Hu are sepearated...."
It isnt a satisfied one. Be lenient with your criticisms.
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ambitions..
Thought of the ambitions i had since when I was a kid.
When I was four, I wanted to be a pilot. Inspired while watching those jet planes whoozing pass my house during National Day. However, my eyesight turned from bad to worse, so I banished the thought.
When I was seven, I wanted to be a police officer. Crimewatch and Triple 9 is behind this. Those fighting skills were so cool even to an eye of an amature. However, I was frail and weak. Plus, being a cop means putting my life in danger, so I wiped out tt ambition from my mind after a while.
When I was fourteen, I wanted to be a musician and a singer. Guess where the inspiration came from this time? Well most of u might have guessed it. It is none other than my all time fav. singer Jay Chou the music genius! I wanted to be like him as I love music as much as he does. But my mum didnt want me to study music, no matter hw much I begged. So it is like a dream which cannt be fulfilled. *sighs*
Sad huh? All my ambitions and dreams could not be fulfilled. I thought I m just a helpless soul wandering around planet earth. Christ made me realised hw wrong I was. I acheived a lifelong ambition since the day I accepted Christ. I m a servant of God, which is a much more glorifying and honourable thing than any of these ambitions put together. Having ambitions is good. However, these things r nt for eternity. It only surfaced and live during ur few decades on Earth. You can bring any of this glory away. Arrive on Earth empty, leave empty. Thats the only memorable thing that has been taught to me by my prev. generations. God judged and reward me by how loyal am I to Him and not by my acheivements on Earth. I am a servant of God, my Father. Yesterday, today and forever...
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Where is the privacy and freedom?
Start off badly for today. I tink tis is the worst vacation I had since my first sem. This sem's vacation is full of naggings and rubbish talk by my mum. Whats her problem nowadaes? She is especially nosey todae. She ransacked my room's drawers and asking mi all sorts of questions. Hello? I am already eighteen tis year! If she keeps doing this, how m i suppose 2 grow up? Worse of all is when she sees her picture in my drawer, there she goes again. Saying that I dun even want to work, hw m i suppose 2 keep a girl by my side. Yeah so what if I worked? I cant even keep a single cent, hw m i suppose 2 keep a girl by my side also? She even confiscated the savings that I earned from my grandma and aunt, damn it! Part of it is my savings, where I bear with my hunger pangs and save my lunch money. All I want to do is to get somethings which u dun 1 2 get 4 me, do u haf to take awae my savings? Even the most strictest parents on Earth allow their children to make their own decision on their personal savings. I didnt even ask u to give me an ATM card so that I can draw money freely from my bank account. I just want to be given permission to use my own personal savings freely, cant i do tt? Thats why i say i respect only my dad, he noes wads good for me. If my dad didnt buy me a mobile phone at tt time, I doubt I will even own one until now. I wonder wad will I be w/o my dad backing me up.
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my "crown of honour" taken off
Managed to take a few pics of myself before going for a haircut. I miss my messy hairstyle..
Went for a haircut at my usual salon. Today, the barber did an extremely terrible job to my hair. Seriously, i can say tis is the worst haircut i ever had in life. I remember my haircut used to suck due to be constant figeting when I was on the barber seat, which results the barber in making the wrong estimation when he is handling my hair. However, i can tell you peeps out there that today's haircut was worse off than when I was a kid. That numbskull shaved almost every single hair off my head today when I told him clearly that I want a normal slope haircut. Whats worse, he left my fringe handing around my head, which makes me look like some hoodlums lurking around the back alleys. Ergh, screwed up haircut. How m i suppose 2 work with this haircut? Damn it! The hair that dropped on the floor during the haircut almost forced uncontrallable tears out of my eyes. Gosh was real upset and distraught abt this. I think I have to seal my webcam for about a month before I can unleash it. I will turn out as a national embarassment if I were to switch on the webcam while chatting with my frens on MSN. Dun ask mi for my current haircut photo pls, I m refraining myself from phototaking this month. Samantha, Carina and Jereline, sorry to disappoint the three of u again. I cant go out with you girls until at least a month later. My hair will be back by then. Come to think of it, I have to get used to this kind of hairstyle sooner or later. SAF is not going to accept hair touching ur shoulders. They wun even want a single strand of hair on ur head. So kind of early adaptation to military life.
Restructure the posters in my study room. Took down the Final Fantasy VII poster and place it on the wall behind the door. I know its going to give my grandma a shock when she closes the door while changing but who cares. Its not like I have any choice, I m sharing the room with my aunt and sis. So its like the walls in my study room is being split into three shares? Well I m better off than my sister aniwae. Her side of the wall has much limited space than my side of the wall. Half of her wall is being blocked by the windows. Poor girl. Plus she cant reallie place any posters on her side of the wall. The heat dissipation on the wall due to the external heat makes it impossible for posters to be stuck permanently on the wall. So her side is usually bare. Finally, I unleashed Jay Chou's new album poster and stuck it on the wall. Looks kind of nice. Now I m short of 1 spiritual poster. Might take a trip to popular bookstore to get one "Lord's Prayer" or other Christian related posters. Was intending to put her picture in the photoframe on my table, but i banished the thought in the end. Its gonna attract unnecessary attention whenever ppl enter my room. Moreover, I handed most of the photos to her, no extras left to display. Aniwae, its time to move on right? Shldnt be looking at the past all the time. Dug deep into my wardrobe and guess what I found? The Bartley yearbook 2001, that is when I was Sec 1. Boy do i look childish when i was thirteen. Of course, looking at the yearbook means seeing both my arch enemies, Qifong and Karwee in it. Grrrr...but nevertheless, i can choose nt to see their faces animore. Cant believe it still makes my blood boils when I saw Karwee during teacher's day. It becomes sth i laughed at whenever i tink of tt. Haha, guess somethings nv change. Samantha is recovering. Hope this muddle headed sister of mine knows how to take care in future. Below is a picture of her, the right one.:
She looks a little like the main character in Dragon Tiger Gates, Wang Xiao Long when he is young. No offense Samantha, it is the child actor who looks like girl, not tt u look like a boi.
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i had a bad dae.
Initially, started the dae off well. Went to my aunt's hse in the afternoon, and i found out tt she has already fix a broadband connection for his son's com. So i can go into the internet freely, so i didnt some HTML coding. Had a chat with Samantha on MSN. She has recovered from her fever and her bruises are recovering. Poor girl, seeing her hurt makes my heart hurt too. Had a sumptious dinner, on the expense of my uncle's wallet. Poor guy, has to pay for everything which my aunt ask for.
Thought the dae was a good 1, until my bro called my mum todae. I m to go down for an interview this saturdae for a job as a waiter in a japanese restaurant. Well it is nt tt i dun like to work. I always want to work part time, so that i can use the salary to get the things tt i yearned for and perhaps clothes which my mum wun buy for me. But wads the use in getting the salary and having no rights to use it? I have to hand it all over to my mum. She assumed that whatever she use it for is alwaes for my own good. Yeah rite...using my money to get gifts for my sis and my bro is for my own good? Den why shld i work? Why not ask dem to work instead of using my money to buy things for them? Nonsensical rite? Thats the main reason why i dun 1 2 work. You give everything u haf got in ur job, but u r returned absolutely nothing. Whats the pt of working den? I cant tell the boss anithing cuz he cant do anithing abt it. He has done his job by giving mi the salary, wad more can he do? Slap my mum and return my money to me? I wun allow it although i dun like the wae she treats mi.
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serious HTML meddlings
Been busy these days with HTML, helping with frens with the designs of their blog as well as my own. Bo Yao went for project superstar selection todae. Unfortunately, due to the fatigue of the judges which results in the poor sense of listening, he was out of the selection. Dun wurry Bo Yao, the judges are blind and deaf but we r not. You are always the Superstar of A3.
Planning to go out with my 3 sisters, Carina, Jereline and Samantha sometime tis week. Due to forseen circumstances, it has to be sometime later tis coming week. Samantha is having fever and she just bruised herself due to a minor accident. Poor girl, battling against sickness at home. Feel like a useless brother sometimes. She is hurt and sick, and i cant do anithing abt it except sms. Promised to be there for her when she is in need, and i cant fulfill tt promise. Feel so useless sometimes, haiz...
Samantha, be strong for tis period of time. Kor might nt be with u, but remember kor will alwaes be there for u if u need mi...
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a touching drama..
Didnt go out todae, damn lazy. Mum kept forcing mi to look 4 a job, but i told her i didnt want to. Holidaes is for mi to rest, i reallie dun feel like working, esp. after a real hectic semester. She keep emphasising the money which i will earn at the end of the month, deducting the sum of money used on transport and food. Well it reallie doesnt make ani difference, does it? I m an exceptional case from other teenagers. The salary they get, they are allowed to use it to buy things which they longed to have. Wad abt mi? Low allowance, salary has to be given all to my mum. Wadever I longed to have, i nv get to have it in the end. Have to bear with the hunger, save up every single cent of my daily pocket money to buy them. Why cant i be like ani other kids, whu can manage their own money?
Watched MVP Valentine, quite an old drama. Those whu noes mi well shld noe i idolised Gao Xing, one of the best basketball player inside. Well apart from the basketball matches, i like the love story in this drama. Kinda sad and touching, but in the end it all ends up happily. I was tinking to myself, if tis were to happen in real life, would life be better 4 all? I doubt it will happen in real life. I have been a victim of love for years, i noe exactly hw it feels. Sometimes, it can be real sweet, sometimes it can turn u crazie. I m lucky to be still alive frankly speaking. From the damage i incurred in love, i was surprised that i didnt committed sucide or do anithing silly. Must be God, my Father watching my every step.
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