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Hoping for a better year ahead
Celebrated Alvin's birthday today. It was quite peaceful this year, and I like it. Last year's was a littlerowdy, not to mention messy. This year's is so much peaceful as there arent many ppl, just C.Y, Bo Yao and me and ofcourse, the birthday boy himself. Simple, swift and sweet celebration, finished everything before 10pm. Now I am hereto blog, this post was suppose to be up on Sunday 31st December 2006 23:08 , 47, 48 49 secs and counting. However,due to that unfortunate earthquake which happened in Taiwan, it has disrupted many Asian networking activities, resulting in the delay of my posting. Now it is 23:45 51, 52, 53 secs and counting to 2007.
New year resolutions anyone? Well, I sure have a lot to make this time. This is because I would like to make 2007 themost fruitful year ever as it is my last year as a civilian. In the year 2008, I would have to surrender my pink I/C for a SAF 11B as I will be joining the military personal for 2 years. I cant imagine what kind of resolutions I willhave in that rubbish camp, much less having a fruitful year tt year.
I was wondering to myself today, why didnt I decide my own path instead of being obedient to my mum. I am somehow suffering as a result of being too obedient. Since when I was 8 years old, I always wanted to be a lawyer as I want to protect the poor and the helpless from getting unfair judgement. I want to prove to the world that lawful and just lawyers still exists.My mum was against it as she tinks the chances of me being a power hungry lawyer is more than 70%. Ok forget abt tt den. When I was sec 1, I wanted to be a designer as I wanted to design a perfect home for my parents in future. My mum was against tt also, as she tinks theres no security in being a designer. When I was in sec 3, I wanted to be a musician as I have passion for music. This reallie pissed my mum off as she tinks that being a musician is heading to a path of no future. She forced me to work towards being an engineer. Being an engineer or an assistant engineer isbetter than being of ani of those whom I wanted to be. I started tinking what I am working so hard for? And today, I finally made a important and climatic decision in my life. I will try my very best in the remaining days of my polyto get a decent diploma. And after that I will get a decent job, and save up every cent and adopt my first child at theage of 26 as I have totally lost my interest and confidence in getting into a relationship. I would like to help childrenin realising their dreams,as I dun 1 them to suffer like me. And of course, I dun 1 2 choose the path for my children like my mum did. I dun 1 the future pillars of the society to suffer like me.
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Memories still haunt me.
As much as I have promised God not to have anithing to do with her and move on in life, I still went against Him and went to peep at her blog and her friendster profile. Maybe because I had a crush for her for so long that an image of her haunts me occasionally. I dunno whether memories left by her are hurtful or happy. Judging from how she treats me, I am nothing but dust to her now. Looking at her photos now, I somehow feel kind of irritated, frustrated and disappointed. There is a tinge of hate when I see her photos, feelings are totally different from before. Maybe because the "obedient girl" image seems to have disappeared all of a sudden, making me a bit pissed off. It seems that girls around my age are dressed up so typically that the sight of them kinda make me want to puke.
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Countdown to Alvin's Birthday-->5 more days
5 more days to Alvin's birthday. I am sure this year will be much better than last year. Everyone is going 2 have a pretty comfortable time eating the cake as I have bought the necessary utensils to prevent unecessary hassles during the process. Items like spoons, paper plates and tissue papers so that consuming the cake would be more convenient.
Went to school to play basketball today, but the weather is such a letdown. It is like kinda on and off today. It was raining initially, so we thought we might no be able to shoot hoops. But it stopped miraculously after 15 mins. However, when we started playing for around half an hour, it started raining again. But when we went to AMK, the weather turns fine again. I cant really explain what is happening to the weather these few days. Perhaps someone has upset the balance of nature resulting in the horrifying and unexplainable weather pattern.
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End of entertainment days
This week marks the end of my entertainment days. Next week would be the revealing of my atrocious results for my common test and the preparations for the final exams. I would have to work much harder than anybody else cuz I am pretty sure of my results for the common test. So in order to do this, I did a full scale cleaning cum restructuring plan to my room. This is to ensure that I would have a more comfy place to study, since this time I am pretty sure I would have to study alone. Well I am not totally against studying with Ben, but some of his classmates are really too much. I cant just sit down and let them mock at me. I havnt cultivated patience to that level yet I am afraid. So studying alone without him would at least keep them quiet for a while. Well, this is what you get if you arent well liked by ppl around you. I have long grown out of it since secondary school. Ever since that Indonesian rich bastard called Glenn Alinske mocked me and started imitating my voice when I speak, I felt that there isnt any point to be bothered by these pathetic dogs. All they want is a bone to bite, so just give it to them.
Well love problems seems to have been blocked out of my mind these few days. Maybe I haf grown out of it, or I am no longer a supporter of love. Well it feels great though without these unwanted problems, able to take in more fresh air than before.
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Pleased to see the work of God
I am so glad that I finally see Anna grow up. Went to her Christmas performance today. Grrr...Ben ps me at the last minute, saying that he dun 1 2 be present in a Christian function. Come on, believing in Christ is by one's decision, no one can force you to convert, I dun remember forcing u to believe in Christ these 2 years in school. I was reluctant to go in at first, but I was eager to find out whether I can stop worrying about this silly girl. I am glad that I made the correct decision. Anna Lim Mei Shan, she finally grew up. I see the work of the Lord. Praise the Lord. It takes great courage for someone to share their life story in front of a big audience, especially when one has a dark past. I knew when she was 14, Anna was a confused young girl, unsure about where she should go. She is a Christian, or she claimed that she was at tt pt of time. However, she refuses to listen or read the gospel at tt pt of time. I remember when I started sharing some testaments with her in school, she said she doesnt want to tok abt the Bible. So I knew at that point of time, she hasnt reallie accepted Christ. I started praying for her, inviting her to my church's fellowship, but she always declined. At tt pt of time, I rebuked God, blaming Him for not answering my prayers for Anna. I realised how wrong I was, Anna had changed, though it is not by me. God answered my prayers. Look at her, she is a mature young lady, decent and sweet. Yeah she has alwaes been sweet and everything, but her disrespect of God's word has covered the word sweet. After listening to Anna's life story, I felt that I have failed my duty as her friend. I noe she was really hurt and everything, esp. after that freak cheated her feelings, but I didnt noe she attempted sucide. When she said that, I almost wept, but I managed to control myself. I asked myself, why didnt I asked her? She was there to listen to me, but why didnt I listened to her. I realised that Anna was being very understanding. So wad if she tells me, I wun noe how to solve her problems as I have got mine. In the end, both of us are going 2 suffer. I remember when I returned to Bartley for the first time after my Os, I saw that irresponsible freak who cheated her. I cant tell how pissed I was at tt pt of time. Worse of all, he dated someone who condemned me when I was sec 1. I felt like thrashing him up when I saw him, but I controlled myself by grabbing my jeans tight on the side, and also said a prayer. Wads over is over. Moreover, Anna chose to follow the Lord after that setback. Anna, I am proud of u, continue to walk with the Lord.
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Justice prevails
Finished watching Episode 11 of Death Note Animated series. Was both angry and touched when I watched this episode. Angry because of the 2nd Kira(Misa), touched to see L, as uncaring as he may seems on the surface, developed care and concerns for his fellow subordinates. I wonder why many people is eager to see Misa appear in the anime. Is she that good looking? Her wrongdoings has destroyed her image. She took on innocent lives just to prove that she is Kira, this is reallie atrocious! Women who are good looking by nature tends to be more vicious as her beauty enables her to seduce guys easily. I learnt that when I was in Secondary One, which I will not go into details about how I learnt it. It will be better for a guy to find someone who isnt particular abt her dressing or how she looks than someone who is vivaciously particular about how she looks. Thats why I never liked girls who put on thick makeup(and claim that it is natural) or dressing up in a way which guys will ogle at them. It gives me an impression that they are absolute loose women. No. This is the absolute truth. I am not lying. Okay by writing things like this will probably lure dogs wagging their cute little tails in my blog by spamming. Nevertheless, I will just say it.
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Spring cleaning.
No, i am not doing early spring cleaning for CNY. Did spring cleaning over at my cousin's place after the mess and "debris" his frens left over last nite. It is at this pt of time which I can show my fillal piety towards my grandmother by helping her clear up the mess and talking to her so that she will not feel so bored. She is versed with neither Chinese nor English, so communicating with my cousin is almost impossible. So besides being her interpreter between her and my cousin cuz my cousin doesnt noe hw 2 speak in dialect, I had also become a friend to her. She isnt someone who doesnt understand wad young teens like. If she doesnt, she wun bother to sit down watching Death Note The Movie with me. Didnt noe she was interested in such a complicated plotted story.
Time to feed the dogs tmr. I bet those spammers are at home, in their rooms, banging their heads on tables or on the wall cuz I have removed the tagboard from my blog, giving them no chance to spam. Tmr, I decided to put it back for a little while to allow some of my buddies to tag and at the same time give the dogs a chance to feed themselves so that they wun suffer from a fit for nt spamming for a long period of time. Drug addicts are far better off than this losers. On the surface, they will be raged, cursing in my tagboard, saying that I have no rights to call them dogs or wadsoever. But deep in their heart, they feel greatful to me for giving them a chance to loosen up themselves, acting like wild beasts in my tagboard. Well I am very kind to animals, so by all means spam. Just have to clear the bowels u dogs released after ur meal by throwing them into the trashcan.
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Reviews on the Nanking Massacre
The Nanking Massacre
Chinese name
Simplified Chinese
南京大屠杀
Traditional Chinese
南京大屠殺
Pinyin
Nánjīng Dàtúshā
Japanese name
Kanji
南京事件,南京大虐殺
Hepburn Rōmaji
Nankin Jiken,Nankin Daigyakusatsu
The Nanking Massacre, commonly known as "The Rape of Nanking", is the most well-known of the war crimes committed by the Japanese military carried out by Japanese troops in and around Nanjing (also known in English as Nanking), China, after it fell to the Imperial Japanese Army on December 13, 1937. The duration of the massacre is not clearly defined, although the period of carnage lasted well into the next six weeks, until early February 1938.
During the occupation of Nanjing, the Japanese army committed numerous atrocities, such as rape, looting, arson and the execution of prisoners of war and civilians. Although the executions began under the pretext of eliminating Chinese soldiers disguised as civilians, a large number of innocent men were wrongfully identified as enemy combatants and killed, or simply killed in any event as the massacre gathered momentum. A large number of women and children were also killed, as rape and murder became more widespread.
The extent of the atrocities is hotly debated, with numbers ranging from some Japanese claims of several hundred[citation needed], to the Chinese claim of a non-combatant death toll of 300,000. A number of Japanese researchers consider 100,000-200,000 be an approximate value[1]. Other nations usually believe the death toll to be between 150,000-300,000[citation needed]. This number was first promulgated in January of 1938 by Harold Timperly, a journalist in China during the Japanese invasion, based on reports from contemporary eyewitnesses. Many other sources, including Iris Chang's commercially-successful The Rape of Nanking, also promote 300,000 as the death toll.
In addition to the number of victims, a few extreme nationalists have even disputed whether or not the atrocity happened. Whilst the Japanese government has acknowledged such an incident did occur, the extremists presented their case starting with the Japanese army's claims at the International Military Tribunal for the Far East that the death toll was military in nature and that no such civilian atrocities ever occurred. However, an overwhelming amount of evidence contradicts this. The existence of such an atrocity has been repeatedly confirmed by statements of Westerners at the International Military Tribunal for the Far East as well as eyewitnesses then today, who had personally witnessed civilians being murdered and women raped by Japanese soldiers. There is also an extensive collection of photographic records of mutilated bodies of Chinese women and children. Recent archaeological findings further support the existence of this massacre having taken place.
The massacre is a major focal point of burgeoning Chinese nationalism, and in China, opinions are relatively homogenous[citation needed]. In Japan, however, public opinion over the severity of the massacre remains widely divided - this is evidenced by the fact that whereas some Japanese commentators refer to it as the 'Nanking massacre' (南京大虐殺, Nankin daigyakusatsu), others use the more ambivalent 'Nanking incident' (南京事件, Nankin jiken). The event continues to be a point of contention and controversy in Sino-Japanese relations.
I cannot believe this. This is really the worst atrocities committed within a century. Not a single person is left in this region. I am really sorry that I have to say this; where is Kira at this point of time? There bound to be many unsaved souls within this region. Curse those Japanese who still claim that they only murdered hundred people. It is Three Hundred Thousand! I am so disraught to see the truth behind the Nanking Massacre. The Japanese are still hiding these facts from their future generations. I wonder how the people of Japan is gonna live with those lies told by the government.
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2nd paper I screwed.
It is an MS(moodswing) day for everyone taking the EG2008-Engineering Mathematics Common Test paper today. Raymond is like shouting all the wae the moment he step out of the lecture hall. The paper is so difficult that almost everyone end up screwing it up big time. Yeah, BIG TIME. No mood to tok today..will continue tmr
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how i enjoy "screwing" things up
Today is EG2010-Electronic Communication common test paper. I must say this must be the worst attempt of the common tests that I ever take in my poly life. I TOTALLY SCREWED it up. Worse of all, I thought I saw the others around mi smiling. Which means the paper isnt tt difficult, it was me who wasnt prepared. I left immediately after the common test without even stopping to wait for any of my frens. EXIT--->PACK--->LEAVE FOR BUS STOP. Why? Practically all of them are discussing about the answers. What do I have 2 discuss with them. I have no answers for all the questions in section B cuz it is so clean and empty. How m i suppose 2 discuss with them?
After today I have come up with another conclusion. Everyone's strengths and abilities are different. You cannot just base on one's ability and think that u can do exactly the same. This is the most fantasy thinking which man can ever have. Take this common test as an example. I tot if Ben, Liqing and Raymond can start last min and score As or Bs, then i can do the same too. I realised how very wrong I was. My learning ability is not as versatile as them. They are able to think fast and act first when environment turns tense or somehow urgent. I cant. I HAVE to start early in order to do well. So never again will I let my guard down.
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Bye bye spammers
Cant spam mi now can you? I shld have done this earlier. I was too naive to think that those rich scums will change for the better. Well scums ARE scums, they will never change. They will just live on and rot. Of course, spoil their family's name too. The world in Deathnote have a nickname for Light, "Kira". Well I am not at all good in giving nicknames for scums. So these should be their nickname, "Vermin". Get it? V-E-R-M-I-N. Mark my words, I am going 2 live my life as usual, even if you think the world is better off with me dead. God gave me this one life to live, I am going 2 live it well. YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO REMOVE ME FROM THE FACE OF THE EARTH! LOOK INTO THE MIRROR BEFORE HURLING INSULTS ON OTHERS YOU SCUMBAGS!
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Anti Spammers Society Established
Anti Spammers Society
Established 2006
"For those who absolutely hate evil, lets show them that justice always prevail!"
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doing only things that interest me
In the ELP now blogging. I dun 1 2 start mugging in school now as somethings just doesnt interest me. Many people thinks that I am someone so childish who alwaes imitate anime characters. I guess they just dunno me well enough. First of all I dun imitate them. Most of the time when my actions coincidentally happened to be just like some anime character. Those people who r so darn bias against me will take this opportunity to accuse me of always trying to be some anime characters of a certain animation. For instance, the Death Note anime which seems to be the talk of the town. These childish people accuse me behind my back for imitating the way L, the detective, suck his thumb and also imitating his liking for lollipops and chocolates. I HAVE BEEN SUCKING MY THUMB AND BITING FINGERNAILS SINCE THE AGE OF 10! WAS DEATHNOTE EVEN DRAWN AT THAT POINT OF TIME! And also there is another similarity between us. I dun care hw those spammers is going 2 spam tonite, i just have clear it up later. I realise that I too, do only things which interest me. For instance, studying, no matter how CY kept pushing, I will still ignore her and do my own things. If the topic they are doing now is HTML, I can be sure that I wun be here blogging. I alwaes leave things that doesnt interest me behind and do it at the last minute. Since after I accepted Christ, Bible seems to be a much more meaningful book than any other books. Textbooks may help u pass exams, but it will never promise u eternal life. Believing in God's words and using them in ur life is sth more meaningful than scoring in every single subject or acheiving top ten in ur school These things will soon pass and u will find out in the end, you worked hard for nothing. Now if the module coordinator is to give me two choices, you can choose 2 spread the word of the gospel and fail the common test if you pass, or just forget about your gospel and do the common test, I will choose to fail. I am no loser, if the module coordinator choose 2 be so impartial with the grading, he is in the fault. I would rather fail than stop spreading the word of the gospel. Passing gives mi the key to the world, spreading the word of the gospel saves lives and gives keys to Heaven. I will rather save lives.
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Dun like to be compared.
Met Anna at YCK MRT station. Said she wanted to pass me her Church's Christmas party ticket. She was a little late, but I could manage the time. I used 2 feel very irritated whenever I see her, cuz she doesnt seem to grow up. Well today it was different, I was really happy to see her, to the extent that my eyes were filled with tears. It has been a long time since I see her. My young and childish Anna has finally grown up to be matured.
Since young, I never liked to be compared. I have been compared frequently since young. "Why cant you do better than the guy next door, he is laughing at u.", "why arent you like ur brother?" "Look at ur cousin! His results r so much better than urs" Well my view on this had certainly changed when I accepted Christ. Before that, I feel reallie hateful, vowing to seek revenge to punish ppl whu compare mi. Now, I only felt a little irritated. Well you cant expect me not to feel irritated when even my frens are comparing me with their boifren/girlfren. Example: "Why cant you do your tutorial? So and so is so busy yet he still did it.", "This is suppose 2 be ur forte and you can be so careless? So and so was taught by you and yet he did better than u", "Why you dun 1 2 carry ur bag in the correct way? So and so's bag is 2 months older than yours but it is still in good condition."
Well it is kinda normal to hear this comparisons. Their loved one is the perfect person in their eyes, of course they would like to show the world how great their life partner is. Well I cant blame them. I just dun like the wae they compare me with their partner, it kinda irks mi.
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Busy busy busy
Have never been so busy in my life before. Early in the morning wake up to try and finish up my Engineering Mathematics notes as it will be due for checking this week. I have a book of completed notes but I am not quite satisfied with it, so I decided to redo it. After that, I tackled the Troubleshooting Techniques questions. Just finished it a few mins ago and guess what, I havnt finish the Engineering Mathematics assignment and Tutorial 8 of Electronic Circuit Analysis. Alvin wasnt free today, so cancelled the trip to his house, which is a great loss cuz I couldnt ask for guidance. My bro is specialising in Civil Engineering, he noes nothing about the analysis of the electronic circuit. I sure hope Alvin will let me copy his Tutorial 8 or I will be doomed for sure.
Amist the busy schedule today, I took some time off to take a stroll down the beach. I couldnt take the stress, so I decided to stroll down the beach, hoping to destress a little. Not only do I have to tackle stress of my academic studies and my upcoming common test, but also some emotional stress. In the end, I didnt managed to confess to her, cuz I am pretty sure tis is a pretty bad time for she is about to go into a relationship. If i confess now, I am unsure about the results. I asked in a manner which she will never suspect, and I got my answer. Done.
Hope that I will be able to clear the doubts of the common test before it comes. I dun wanna fail again.
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contented with life
There is night class as usual for today. Kinda getting sick of poly life now, esp. when you see the attitudes of my classmates. Cannot be bothered, expecting to be spoon fed like spolit brats, spoiling the name of NYP, giving bad impression to the lecturers and no respect for the lecturers. Why do my class have to be full of this kind of fools? Listened to a small talk by my EG2010-Electronic Communications tutor. Discussed about the future and the dropping of standards of local polytechnics and universities. It seems that the compeition is very tense now in the world, with loads of China graduates coming to Singapore to compete with us. After the talk, CY said all of us haf 2 work hard in order to succeed. I started to think, is that what we want in life? Most people have this thinking because they think there is no continuation of life after death. So they did wadever they can to live life to fullest, to make money and working hard for their studies, so they will not live life with regrets. I was once like that, thats why I can understand what CY and majority of the others tink. But I started to tink, what are we working so hard for? Just to become successful? Just to earn some extra cash to live a comfortable life? I started to tink, once I have earned enough, how many years do I have left? Can earning extra cash, or being successful in career, studies or life grants u eternal life? Even if having these acheivements can increase one's life span, it will still end one day. If these acheivements can grant me eternal life, I am more than willing to go all out in whatever I do. However, I know in my heart that no mortals can find a way to acheive the goal of having eternal life. Jesus Christ is the only way. I believe in Him, that He died for us on the Cross to redeem us of our sins. And His decision for our lives will do us nth but good. What else should I be afraid of? Jobs? I am sure God will prepare the path for me. Whatever job I am given, I am sure I wun starve to death. My monthly salary is definitely enough for me. God's preparation is the best. All I pray for is a steady job with a stable income. I dun wish for high income or popularity. Walking with God is my only meaningful path. I will continue to walk with Him. I will do anything within my power to clear my education path and try my very best to get a decent grade, but nothing more. Content in the heart is the key to a peaceful life.
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be contented always..
There is night class as usual for today. Kinda getting sick of poly life now, esp. when you see the attitudes of my classmates. Cannot be bothered, expecting to be spoon fed like spolit brats, spoiling the name of NYP, giving bad impression to the lecturers and no respect for the lecturers. Why do my class have to be full of this kind of fools? Listened to a small talk by my EG2010-Electronic Communications tutor. Discussed about the future and the dropping of standards of local polytechnics and universities. It seems that the compeition is very tense now in the world, with loads of China graduates coming to Singapore to compete with us. After the talk, CY said all of us haf 2 work hard in order to succeed. I started to think, is that what we want in life? Most people have this thinking because they think there is no continuation of life after death. So they did wadever they can to live life to fullest, to make money and working hard for their studies, so they will not live life with regrets. I was once like that, thats why I can understand what CY and majority of the others tink. But I started to tink, what are we working so hard for? Just to become successful? Just to earn some extra cash to live a comfortable life? I started to tink, once I have earned enough, how many years do I have left? Can earning extra cash, or being successful in career, studies or life grants u eternal life? Even if having these acheivements can increase one's life span, it will still end one day. If these acheivements can grant me eternal life, I am more than willing to go all out in whatever I do. However, I know in my heart that no mortals can find a way to acheive the goal of having eternal life. Jesus Christ is the only way. I believe in Him, that He died for us on the Cross to redeem us of our sins. And His decision for our lives will do us nth but good. What else should I be afraid of? Jobs? I am sure God will prepare the path for me. Whatever job I am given, I am sure I wun starve to death. My monthly salary is definitely enough for me. God's preparation is the best. All I pray for is a steady job with a stable income. I dun wish for high income or popularity. Walking with God is my only meaningful path. I will continue to walk with Him. I will do anything within my power to clear my education path and try my very best to get a decent grade, but nothing more. Content in the heart is the key to a peaceful life.
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common test fears
Common test is just a week awae and I hadnt been mugging. This off campus study is of no use. I seemed busier than I normally am. E quizzes came flying rite into my face every single day and I had a hard time sorting them one by one, much less sit down mugging on my lecture notes with a nice cup of coffee.
Mum and sis's gonna be gone for a week. Well doesnt make ani difference for them to leave at this point of them whereby my leisure time is cut by half due to my common test. Nevertheless, their departure makes life less uptight at home. I can study in peace at least.
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