Gundam 00 - Gundam Meister

`Gundam 00 dispatching enemy ;
another week left

As usual woke up an hour later than the time set on my handphone alarm clock. The weather was cooling as usual, so i took forty winks and woke up at around 8 plus. Luckily we are meeting at around 10:30am or i will be late. But Ben is late again, so i went into the campus straight as i m afraid the tutorial rooms might be taken. And praise the Lord, i took the last empty tutorial room before the other guy took it. He was right behind mi when i found the room, but i happened to open the door first, haha. So the room is mine! =.=

Waited for Ben and my jie to arrive, cuz my books r in my jie's locker. If she dun open the locker, i cant study as i dun haf the books. Den started studying for EG2120, and suprisingly i completed two tutorials. Quite a breakthru, but far from done. Another week more to study, hope i m in time.

Saw sth reallie strange in the bus, two girls in front of mi r acting like couples. Or maybe, they ARE couples. The moment, they alighted i shook my head. It seems that these kinda things is wad we call 'normal' nowadaes. I have nth against them reallie, though it is against the Bible. Well the environment they r living it, sometimes it is reallie the environment which forces these people to be in the state they r in. Yeah, of course some did it for nth, but most cases r becuz they couldnt face the truth or sth like tt, aint good at explaining it in words. So u can imagine hw we guys hurt girls sometimes. People alwaes sae tt i haf a strong man's pride, and others are alwaes in the wrong when a relationship didnt work out. They r seriously wrong, u can apply tt to someone else i noe though. I understand girl's feelings too. I read the newspaper, i watched the news, and i m aware of my frens problem. I can sae tt us guys hurt girls reallie badly without noeing it. Sometimes, it is not just a direct affection of the heart. It might be the wae we treat ppl around us. If we treat the ppl around us shabbily and cruelly, u tink the girl will feel secure around u? And most of the time, guys(mostly the good looking ones) get bored of their own partner, and started looking for new targets. Some are real straight and asked for a breakup straight awae. I m not standing on the side of girls, no. I dun take sides. I have godsisters and they all face the same problems. I thought its alwaes the guys whu stand to lose in the relationship. But now, i tink girls suffer more. The sister whom i cared for most, Samantha, faced the same problem too, till the pt she is unable to return to her old self.

However, guys DO face the same problem sometimes. Not all girls r that great. I remember when i was secondary one, i confessed to a girl that i like. As i was still young, i thought that everything would be successful as long as i confess. But no, the girl wasnt nice in rejecting mi also. "Would u pls look urself into the mirror before u start shooting mouths? Do u tink u r fit u fat piece of lard? Stop dreaming!" She even wrote a Tang "love" poem to mi, yeah quite "romantic" by changing all the love to hate in the poem. Yeah, Melvin told mi many times, to forgive and forget and that i m a selfish person. But i m still a human, and it is human nature to be not forgiving. I am able to forgive Alvin for leaving mi for no particular reason, i m able to forgive anione whu hurts mi, but i found it hard to forgive this girl. She was the reason why i took so long to confess to Audrey, she hurt my pride so bad that i was unable to face other girls with the self esteem i haf before i enter sec school. I can still communicate with her as frens, but forgiving her is reallie a hard task. If u tink that Audrey is the same as u, u r wrong. Though i said she hurts mi, but i was hurt becuz she rejected mi. Its as simple as that. She told mi plainly that she has no feelings for mi. Unlike u, u dug mi deep and destroyed mi totally. You didnt bother to apologise, up till now u still tink u were right by saying that to mi.

Melvin, dun get the wrong idea. I m not a selfish person. I didnt sae tt i will NEVER forgive her. As long as she confess that she reallie did hurt mi and wadever she said to mi was wrong, and apologises, i will forgive her straightawae. And i m not expecting her to make a public apology, thats ridiculous. Be it on MSN, on the phone or sms. As long as it is a sincere confession and apology, i will definitely forgive her. You can have my word for this. Of course, u might want to tell her abt tis. U should noe whu the her is, same batch as us.

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