`Gundam 00 dispatching enemy ;
no more work for mi
no calls for two days, guess the restaurant have no place for an inexperienced amateur worker like myself. Feeling abit depressed this few daes, dunnoe the real reason behind these. Perhaps its becuz the holidaes are here again, therefore a free trip to lala land, makes mi ponder abt my past. Its nt healthy to look at the past, it will take a long time for mi to kick the habit. I m still pondering over somethings which I should have forgotten earlier.
Why m i still thinking of her? Why is it that i cant put her down and move on with life. Life has been quite miserable when i entered poly. With unsolved problems still clinging on my shoulders, i left Bartley my alma mater, full of doubts and questions. Well, it boils down to my character which causes all this problems to rise. I m shy by nature, and worse of all my self esteem has been hurt more than once by the same girl. Therefore it is no wonder i couldnt speak up in front of girls, unlike kar wee whu seems to have no sense of shame at all. I always thought I m the worst guy a girl can ever have, so I didnt bother to confess to the girl i like. Even under peer pressure, i fabricate an imaginary crush to mislead my frens. So throughout the years of my secondary education, no one taunted or made fun of mi regarding the girl i reallie luv. However, people like Ng Shu Juan can easily spoil ani relationship u r having. This girl is real scheming. I remember making frens with her cuz i tot she was reallie friendly and was sure she is someone whu doesnt backstab. But i was wrong, she became the first girl whu backstabbed mi. Although i have already forgiven her, but i cant bring myself to forget what she has done to mi. But it is also den i realised that Audrey(sorry to mention it again) didnt noe me well, neither does she trust me. If she had trusted me, things wouldnt have turned out this wae. So I think quiet guys tend to lose out in relationships. Guess I will just have to get use to my single and lonely life.
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SETSUNA name: Darren Ng age: 21
Occupation: SAF Gundam Meister
bday: 06101988
WISH
*Christ 2nd coming
*A just world
*God's better half for me
