Gundam 00 - Gundam Meister

`Gundam 00 dispatching enemy ;
talents..

I was wondering the whole day today, just what talent do I actually possess. I reallie dunnoe. Sometimes I reallie envy my cousin. He is born with a silver spoon in his mouth. His father nurture him into a musically and academically friendly person. I want to learn the piano, but my mum thinks that it is too expensive, and it is unneccessarily. And now, my cousin is hitting the highest grade in piano, she started comparing our talents. Hello? If u were to bring me for piano lessons at the age of three, u think I wun be able to play the piano? His dad is rich, hire the best tutors and music teachers to teach him. And me? How can I compare? I have nothing. I started learning harmonica at the age of nine by joining the school's harmonica ensemble. The conductor has no interest in nurturing the begineers, so I have to pick up the skill on my own. Within three months, the conductor pulled me into the ensemble and I started performing in school concerts. At the end of that particular year, I was the lead player of the ensemble. However, my fame didnt last long. One year later, the harmonica ensemble in my school was disbanded all of a sudden. The conductor left the country and I dunnoe why he fled for. So I have to lock up the harmonica, only taking it out once in a while to practice.When I was eleven, I was forced to join the Chinese Orchestra as I have no CCA. I was in the 扬琴 ensemble. This instructor was worse off than my harmonica conductor. On my first day of practice, he just threw mi into a corner, pass me a pair of drumsticks to knock on a cardboard box. I looked like a fool sitting at a corner like tt. After a while, I was allowed to sit down in front of a proper instrument. However, I was left alone to figure out how to play. No matter how well I played in front of the instructor, he just refuse to teach me others. I was only asked to join in the SYF competition when there isnt enough players. I was at the last row, no fame, no nth. It was at this point of time, I fell in love with the lead 柳琴 player of the 柳琴 ensemble. Back then, I was only 12 years old and she was a year younger than me, 11. She was an elegant gal, and I like the way she sits and play the 柳琴. The melodious music that she plays is what I yearned for everyday. When I confessed to her, she told me this, "Just who are you? You are a 扬琴 player, but u r not a lead. Just what talents do u have which I can feel safe when I m with u. Look at Rit, the lead player of the flute ensemble or Hao Song who is versetile with any chinese orchestra instrument. Can you be like one of them? Can you? They are people whom I look up to. Go home and play with ur toy piano." I forgotten how I felt the other time. Is it because of this, up till now the girl whom I like for years find no sense of security in me. Let me tell u tis, I WANT TO LEARN MUSIC! I WANT TO LEARN EVERY SINGLE MUSICAL INSTRUMENT KNOWN TO MANKIND! BUT DO YOU KNOW OF ANYONE WHO CAN NURTURE ME INTO A MUSCIAL TALENT?? NO!!! NOT MY PARENTS, NOT ANYONE! NO ONE APPRECIATES MY EXISTENCE! YOU THINK ALL MY GODSISTERS ARE ALL SAINTS? SOME OF THEM DUN EVEN RESPECT ME AT ALL! LOOK AT BEN'S CLASS, HALF OF DEM JUST HATE TO SEE ME AROUND AND I DUNNOE WADS THE DAMN REASON FOR THAT! I TRIED MY BEST TO PLEASE THEM! EVEN WHEN THEY HURLED INSULTS AND SPAMMED MY BLOG, I REFUSE TO SETTLE SCORES WITH DEM. YET THEY STILL SHOW ME A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E! SERIOUSLY I WANT TO MAKE FRENS WITH EVERYBODY, BUT THEY REFUSE MY OFFER! YOU CANT BLAME TO BE COLD AND RUTHLESS AT TIMES, YOU PEOPLE FORCED ME INTO IT!

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