Gundam 00 - Gundam Meister

`Gundam 00 dispatching enemy ;
I am a human too

Have been very busy with CNY these two daes hence unable to update my blog. Home visiting is the most irritating thing during CNY. Well not exactly irritating, the receiving of red packets isnt tt irritating. Just that the relatives are alwaes asking the same old questions. "Do you have a gf/bf?" , "when r u getting married?" blah blah blah... I already noe wad they want to ask before they even ask me. I like to brush this topics aside sometimes, but this doesnt mean I am a cold blooded person with no feelings at all. I am a human too. I want to go into a serious relationship too. But look at wad happen? I am alwaes pushed around by ladies. I hate being a pushover, get it? I remember when I was Primary 5, although I havnt reallie learnt to like someone yet, someone set me up. He told a female classmate of mine that someone was in love with her. She was very delighted at first. But when he told her that the person is me, her reaction was so big that it reallie gives me a shock hw girls look at guys. She was like coughing and fake puking all the wae, as if I am some kinda freak. That didnt reallie pained my heart as I didnt reallie like tt girl. I didnt blame tt guy too. In fact, I want to thank him for showing me the ugly side of girls when I am just 11 years old. However, after tt incident, I didnt reallie take tt into heart as I thought we were still young, girls will change when they grow older. However, during Secondary 1, I began very grateful to my friend again for showing me the ugly side of girls. I was so sorry that I forgotten all abt it after my primary school graduation. Still being naive, thinking that girls will change when they grow older. Guess that I was wrong, I was stabbed emotionally by the first girl i actually like in my life. She asked me to look into the mirror before I woo others. From that dae onwards, my pride was hurt so badly that I was unable to stand up infront of girls, uptill now. I find it hard 2 forgive her, untill todae. She still tinks that the wae I woo girls is very irritating when in actual fact, it was her whu kept haunting mi when I was sec 1 along with those bitchy friends of hers, kept taunting me saying that I am a toad trying to eat swan's flesh. I didnt have a very good time in my secondary school. Try being looked down throughout ur 4 years of secondary education, see how would you feel. Only at the end of secondary 3, when I met Miss Melissa Yam. I dunnoe hw she behaves in the outside world, but from wad i can see from her as a teacher, she is a rather down to earth person. And speaking from my conscience, she was the one who actually built up my self-confidence before it was destroyed when I enter poly. I havnt had a chance to say this but if she comes across my blog, I would like to say Thank You to her. Thanks for being such a supportive mentor.

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