Doing senseless stuff today. Jobless still of course. Who would want to work if you can't use the money you earned. I have no motivation to look for a part time job, seeing that my mum still doesnt want me to take charge of my own money. Well, my real adulthood is drawing near, so all I have to do is to endure. Yeah, of course ladies hate to see guys still tied to their mothers' apron, esp. financial wise. Why? No money to entertain them of course. But I am not prepared to get married. I dun 1 2 get cheated by women in future. I am still thinking whether to adopt a guy or a girl. If i adopt a guy, would I want him to stay single like me? Knowing my feud against girls, I wonder if I will stop him from getting married. Girl is a little troublesome, i have no knowledge on how to take care of them. But after a while, i have made up my mind to adopt guys. Why the sudden decision? Well...I have been reading thru my tags on my tagboard and I am surprised to come across 1. That person claimed to be a Redemeer(bleaghz!) and accused mi of being a PAEDOPHILE. According to the dictionary, a paedophile is an adult who is sexually attracted to children. I adopt children for a good reason, I want them to be successful in life. I dun 1 2 be accused of being someone I aint. Even if I managed to raise daughters successfully, tis wad they can say, "who noes wad u do to them at home?". After a while, I thought that adopting guys would be the same. They can say, "who noes if u r the next Michael Jackson?". My ambition is to be the next Watari, to nurture geniuses. I cant let tis thinking spoil my reputation. So why not establish a new orphanage instead? My mind is in a whirl now. Why must there be so many people against me? It reallie makes me very tired. If we can just get along, it benefits all of us. Why? I have faults I want to change but...DAMN IT WHY AM I NOT GIVEN THE TIME TO CHANGE. TIME AFTER TIME I TRIED TO CHANGE MYSELF, THESE PEOPLE KEPT PUSHING ME, INSULTING ME, AND SAYING ALL THOSE NASTY THINGS ABOUT ME! I DUN EVEN DARE RETURN TO MY OWN ALMA MATER UNNECESSARILY! JUST SHUT UP AND LET ME CHANGE! IF U KEEP PUSHING ME, THINGS WILL STILL REMAIN AS IT IS! IF YOU DESTROY THE PUPA, THE CATERPILLAR CANT CHANGE INTO A BUTTERFLY. GET THE ANALOGY?
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SETSUNA name: Darren Ng age: 21
Occupation: SAF Gundam Meister
bday: 06101988
WISH
*Christ 2nd coming
*A just world
*God's better half for me