Looks like I am naive as always. I still have this thinking that being nice to ppl around u, they will be happy and grateful. You dun have to let them know what you have done for them, seeing the smiles on their face is good enough. However, I see tt it dun always happen. Why am I always so naive? I took all the precautions to prevent her from knowing who the sender of the EG3161 notes were, but alas she still found out. Her reaction reallie hurt me badly. I know I did wrong by misusing the resume tt she gave me. I might have been to rash, but what I wanted to do was to help her. If I could, I would rather give it to her upfront. I didnt think of mailing it to her house at first, I really thought of giving it to her upfront. However, I am afraid ppl around her might think that I am up to no good. So I sent the notes to her anonymously, so that she will not know who sent it to her. But she knew it straightaway. I thought she will just accept it. But she actually took the trouble to scan everything that I sent her and emailed it to my email account. I was really hurt. It has always been my dream to make everyone around me happy, but in the end I hurt myself. I don't want to go back to school next week, I feel like giving up on my education. I felt too humiliated to return to school. Can I just leave school? I cant imagine the pointing of fingers and the stares I haf to bear when I go back to school on monday. I hope everyone will act as if nothing will happen. There I am, dreaming again.
My Lord, take me away from this world. I once love the world more than You but now, I long to be with You everyday.
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SETSUNA name: Darren Ng age: 21
Occupation: SAF Gundam Meister
bday: 06101988
WISH
*Christ 2nd coming
*A just world
*God's better half for me