Not in the mood to blog yesterday...cuz I escaped death like 3 times? First was at the MRT station, I stand in between the doors when the train door opened. Didnt go in until someone pulled me in. Second was when I was waiting for cab. I flagged for the cab in the middle of the road. A truck honked mi to consciousness before I ran back to the pavement to continue waiting. Third was the stairs, I walked down the stairs without looking at the steps, almost fell from the top when I "eyeballed" my steps. I admit I wasnt in the right mind for the whole day, even when meeting out with the guys. First we played LAN at somewhere near Dhoby Ghaut interchange. They wanted to play DOTA, but I wasnt interested in that game. Wanted to play Audition at first, but it took forever to update, and that game really pains my heart now. So played Counterstrike, and the guys joined me first before carrying on with their game. I was like totally outta my mind in that game, being killed before I even buy weapons. I was so pissed that I bought the biggest machine guns and fire all the available rounds at anyone I see on the screen. I really need some professional counselling right now. So stressed and hurt emotionally. I dunno if she is still angry with me, but I have a feeling she is. She might not be angry with me, but I am sure she is angry with someone. Never see her lose her temper like that before. Now my only concern is, does this have to do with me. I no longer see her cheerful msges with smileys all over it. JUST WHAT HAPPENED??!!! Why am i such a failure to notice these stuff?? I m close to having a sucidal mind right now, wonder who on earth can help me...she is like totally ignoring me. At first I thought she is having some orientation camp with the secondary ones. But come to think of it, given her character, she will inform me and tell me she is unavailable due to the camp, but she didnt. I called her like numerous times yesterday, she didnt ask why, which she normally does. I am completely lost right now, I dunno wad will happened to be in camp tmr with a subconscious state of mind....might screw up a couple of things
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SETSUNA name: Darren Ng age: 21
Occupation: SAF Gundam Meister
bday: 06101988
WISH
*Christ 2nd coming
*A just world
*God's better half for me
