`Gundam 00 dispatching enemy ;
chocs that taste even more bitter than dark ones
Have been faking my smiles as usual tis few daes. Dun really noe why I m in such a lousy mood for such a long time. The news of me posting back to Ayer Rajar Camp made me happy for a short moment but gone back to the lousy mood when I realized that I am still facing other problems.
To make my already foul mood worse, my mum placed the chocs that my ex bought for me as a belated Christmas present in the refrigerator. I knew it only just a few moments ago, when my dad asked who placed a box of rocher in the regfrigerator. Well, I did lie to my mum that it was from one of the warrant officers in my unit, so she didnt elaborate anything more or less.
I took one of it and I am sad to say that this is the first time, I tasted chocolates so bitter. I tried the normal rochor, and it taste so much bitter than the dark ones. Well it isnt the chocs problem, it was my problem. Those chocs somehow bring me back to the time we had our first...well forget it. No point elaborating so much on it. It is all over and for goodness sake, she wun be here to see my entries. Even if she does, she wun feel a thing. It was just a phoney relationship to her, probably one which allows her to pass her boredom during her school holidays, and I was that idiot who took the bait, thinking that it is true and lasting love.
I still want to find the right one, although i m like kinda scared to step into the game circle again. Once bitten twice shy. I am badly bitten, I was used as a bait. I cant recover in a short period of time, esp. when it comes to the wounds which are inflicted on my heart. NEVER push the irresponsible party in a R/S to us guys, not all girls are saints. Some are worse than devils, whose existence even threatens Satan to give up his seat.
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SETSUNA name: Darren Ng age: 21
Occupation: SAF Gundam Meister
bday: 06101988
WISH
*Christ 2nd coming
*A just world
*God's better half for me
